Do I finally fit in somewhere?

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Hello everyone,

My name is Emily and I've just now discovered this website. I'm almost 24 years old, but I've recently come to the conclusion that there may be a reason for why I have always been SO different from everyone around me - my parents and I think I may have Asperger syndrome. My dad and I both fit every single criterion for it, but until recently, neither of us had ever thought to be tested, as it wasn't really "known" to mainstream culture until recently. I've had "mental" issues since I was a child, but most doctors ascribed it to being ADHD and OCD, never bothering to test much further than that - or even formally test anything at all.

I was going to type my life story here, but I suppose it will suffice to say that I think I've finally stumbled on something that could provide some answers for why I am the way I am, as well as perhaps help me to finally be able to overcome or deal with some of the difficulties I've faced ever since I was a young child.

Once I find a reputable psychologist who accepts my insurance plan (not an easy thing in this city, unfortunately), I do plan on being formally tested for Asperger syndrome. I was diagnosed as having ADHD and OCD when I was younger, and while I do display traits of both, there are many things that don't quite fit with either of them. For example, the odd gait. When I was little, I had a very odd walk that my parents called my "dinosaur" walk, because I would walk with my arms held to my chest and my hands bent, with several fingers extended like dinosaur claws. I lost that walk as I got older, but I still have an odd gait - it's stiff and methodical/formal, and a few people have asked me if I was in ROTC or am in the military, due to my rigid/formal posture when I walk. I don't even realise I'm doing it, and I have to consciously force myself to walk like a "normal" person.

Anyways, I will cut this off before I begin rambling unnecessarily. I do hope that I can finally find some answers and help - and find people who are just as different as I am.

Welcome to WP!

Thank you.

Hi, Emily. Welcome to Wrong Planet!!

You're like me few weeks ago, thus it makes me even more certain that I have it. I was in preliminary tests today so I can get booked for the psychiatrist.

It's like finding the one word(according to western medical science) to explain all your life.

hard to put into words

Welcome!

Hello, Emily - and welcome greetings to the Wrong Planet neighborhood.

Welcome to WrongPlanet.

Welcome!

Welcome!

Welcome!

Yes, and welcome to you and to you, Emily!

Nevertheless, be cautious about shrinks and psychs, I suggest. In my own experience, they can only see our AS/HFA symptoms from the outside, and then they presume those systems need "treatment" and they also try to do even that from there. Coming to terms with ourselves and being at peace with the world around us can only happen from the inside, and whatever "treatment" we need in order for that to happen simply *cannot* be purchased ... and that often angers the shrink or psych. But if you want any financial provision from public (aka "government") coffers, you will likely have to comply with the wishes and imaginations of people who really have no clue about what is actually going on within.

To WrongPlanet!! !

i used to do the dinosaur walk too! i even catch myself doing it from time still. i guess you fit in just a little bit with at least one person.. =]

Hi,welcome to Wrong Planet.

Welcome! I pray that you will make many new friends here