Hello fellow aspies, Below you will find my thesis about myself:
I was always different from everyone else my age. I never used to talk. Apparently my mum thought I was mute until I finally talked. Actually, until quite recently, I have always refrained from talking. I was called a freak at primary school by anyone who actually noticed my existence. There were rumours that I was transexual and that I had a crush on this ugly girl, so I was teased so much I just couldn't take it anymore, so I chnged schools to a poorer, much worse school aroung the corner from my old one. I wasn't teased or bullied there, but I still never made a real friend. I didn't talk enough. Plus, I was very bad at sports, so I was (and still am) very different to all the other boys, and no one in school had anything in common with me. After my younger brother was diagnosed with aspergers, my Mum began to suspect I had it too, and so I was diagnosed at the age of 11 after a suicide attempt when I tried to cut my stomach open with kitchen scissors. It was a surprise that I had aspergers. I always knew I was different, but I only have mild Aspergers, and I guess there were no obvious signs to adults that there was something 'wrong' with me.
Then I went to Secondary school (Whatever the equivalent of 13 year old is in your part of the world) when I was 11, a few weeks before I turned 12. Things were much better there, as wasnot teased at all, instead I was told things like "I wish I was a smart as you". I went to music camp and made my first real friend, because we have things in common. We still talk to each other a lot. However, it was last year when I really felt better and more secure. I met another Aspie (was in my group for guitar lessons because he and I were the only ones at our school who learn classical guitar), who I have much in common with, and can relate to a lot. We talk about things we would never talk about to anyone else, and we can help each other live in this crazy world.
I have never been in any romantic relationships- I am too shy, plus I think I'm too young for that kind of thing, even if the others at school don't think so. I am always teased because I have no girlfriend, and I am unfamiliar with much terminology relating to sex, meaning that I don't understand why people laugh sometimes. Everything I know about the subject, I was told by classmates. Enough about that.
I am happy with my life now, at the age of 15. I am reasonably smart and am very involved at school. I do debating, a heck of a lot of music andd I'm the class captain as well. I have ideas for the future, and for now, life is good for the first time.
I have found that I am happy when I am busy, at any given time I'll know where I need to be.
I don't consider Aspergers/Autism a disability at all. Actually, in a way, I kind of think it's everyone else who is disabled, not us. I cannot imagine what I would be like if I didn't think the way I do. I'm proud to be an aspie, I woudn't have it any other way.
So anyway, that's my introduction. I've been reading the forums here at Wrongplanet for my own benefit for a while, and I have finally decided to take the plunge and hopefully help others in need.
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Apologies for the excessive length of my posts.
24 Aug 2010, 6:43 am
