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I'm a 34 year old male that's been diagnosed with Asperger's. My psychologist said if not for my good verbal ability, i'd be considered a typical autistic. I'm dealing with depression , paranoia/mistrust, and anxiety right now, really bad depression, and taking meds for that and going to therapy. This even startetd before my diagnosis last month, i have been dealing with being "questioning" of my gender identity and sexual orientation, and this lead to therapy and then to a psychologist who diagnosed me with an autism spectrum disorder. Now i'm applying for SSI and vocational rehab and things. I always knew something was wierd about me , but could never put my finger on it. I'm dealing with terrible grief all around, meds are literally the only thing keeping me alive.

Oh yeah, i have really re-discovered stimming, i "unlearned" it years ago (I used to spin around in circles a bit to deal with too much information in my head, but i stopped doing it as a got older cause it was embarrasing... now i try rocking back and forth sometimes or going back to spinning). Stimming helps. I wish i had somebody to hug or hug me though, sometimes i feel i need that so badly. I've found blankets or sweaters make me feel better too.

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Welcome, I hope you find support and friendship here. I'm Aspie and have a hard time being social due to it (and other medical issues) but I find that finding people online is much easier because there is no real expectation on my part or theirs. I have found that for Aspies one of the best types of therapy is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy since it uses logic to overcome the negative mental patterns. I like the "for dummies" series books on it (as accurate as professional manuals) where it has one book to explain the whole process and a second one that is a workbook to help challenge negative or bad thought patterns/emotions.

http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_i_ ... or+dummies

Nice to meet you, Daedelus1138 - and welcome to the WP forums.

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My current therapist uses alot of play therapy with me, after weeks of just talking we hit a brick wall and i ran out of things to say. I find play therapy helps more in this situation.

My psychiatric medications for depression aren't working so well. I'm super-sensitive to medication side effects. I'm taking Wellbutrin, Risperidal, and then Klonopin to deal with panic attacks and akathisia/restlessness the other two are causing. I am thinking of asking my doctor to switch one or all of them to Buspar. Risperidal in particular is not such a good drug for the long term.

Oh... i wanted to add more info about me. I've never had a paying job since highschool, and i've never been out on a date or anything like that in real life. My parents were living in denial about me basicly, or writing off my problems to laziness. I've gone to job interviews and never been hired, so i eventually gave up looking for work, and my work history is so bad to begin with. Having said that, i enjoy reading and learning stuff and have had alot of hobbies and interests over the years and most people are surprised i'm a college dropout., since some think i'm very educated. I used to have social phobia badly but its gotten a bit better over the years.