Hello all, new member from Montréal.
I'm a self diagnosed Asperger, for about a year now, and getting to know more about the syndrome and the others in the autism family has been probably the greatest relief in my life, seeing as I finally have a group with which I can identify myself, seeing as I've never felt like I belonged -ANYWHERE!-.
Basically, I can BARELY tolerate being in groups larger than 8-10 people. I feel my individuality being erased when I'm part of a large group, then I shut down socially.
I have a completly different set of values and interests than most if not all other people I meet, and when this bleeds through in conversations people tell me that I'm just saying the opposite of whatever was said before like I was some drone programmed to say : ''... on the other hand...'' ( note to self: maybe true? ) people think I'm being mean when I'm not, laugh when I'm serious, freeze when I'm trying to be funny in other words nobody, it seems, knows how to gauge my reactions, and when they try to relate with me about something I felt, they are ALWAYS wrong, which leads me to believe that I'm a nutcase, but the thing that Ive got going for me is that I like who I am and I'm gratefull that I have a unique way of seeing most things, it gives me this mysterious aspect in my personality and I'm pretty sure the chicks dig that. Then again, when a girl is ''seemingly'' interested in me, either I'm not, or I can't gauge her reactions or her intentions regarding moi. Although I'm pretty sharp at seeing the interpersonal relationships people have with one another, but the minute that I get involved in the equation, I don't know left from right.
Anyhoo, wether I have AS or not, I'm happy to have found this site, as I have been very surprised of the extent that I can relate to the stories that people are sharing in the discussions, and being able to relate hasn't happened to me at all for the past 23 years.
keep it up, and I look forward to contributing.
Pat
07 Dec 2010, 11:35 pm
