Recently I have had a few situations push me in the direction of thinking that I may have Asperger's Syndrome. It all began years ago when I got with my present fiance (then girlfriend). She is a very strong-headed and determined individual and is constantly pushing me to better myself. Because of this, we are in nearly constant conflict with one another (although I do like it because I have seen a great deal of improvement in my person since I met her). We have this insurmountable gap in our relationship that I don't notice, but she can't seem to fill. She says I am unsupportive of her (although I do whatever I can for her) and that she doesn't feel my actions are genuine because often she has to tell me what she wants me to do. We have been to the point of breaking up when I suggested maybe we seek couples counseling. She looked into it and found a center near to our home and began reading up on psychological topics. She came across Asperger's Syndrome and claimed that it fit me exactly. She had me take an Autism Quotient test and I got a perfect (well, maybe not so perfect) score. She then suggested that I get testing for Asperger's. I contacted two facilities (the one a research facility specializing in autism and the other a clinical facility that has a general practice). I have yet to go to the research facility, but at the general facility, I allowed the psychologist to ask his questions, directing me where he wanted me to go and the conclusion he came to was Asperger's. The big problem I have is that I don't know if my previously thinking about it maybe being Asperger's might have influenced me which would then indirectly influence him to make that conclusion. Reading over this site, if I do have Asperger's, I think it would be a mild form. Also, I am not too bad at language, but I am very bad at math. I thought smart autistic people were generally good at math. I am also bad at spacial geometry. I can't park well. I bump into things, I knock things over. As a researcher it is kind of embarrassing when you ruin a whole cell line by bumping the flask on the incubator while taking it out. Anyway. What do you think? Is there a way to find out for sure if I do or do not have Asperger's???
15 Dec 2010, 1:55 pm
