Hi I'm new and newly diagnosed.

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I don't know what to say. I'm 24, a film student, and I've been taking time off to work through my problems and figure out whats holding me back. So now I know. All the time my instructors have thought that I'm ignoring their advice and I literally can't even HEAR them...

Sigh. It's been a long day. I was lectured by an advertising professor as to why 'the twin towers on fire is not art'. He's the one with the red pen, so I realize yet again that the world is an unfair one.

Enough about that though.

On another note, I'm really glad that I know now about the AS. I can work on the social issues...I can appreciate my obsessions. NTs don't seem to generally get excited about their interests...not like me anyway. I've been ashamed a lot, but I guess enthusiasm is a good thing. I get invited out a lot. Inebriated people tend to 'get' me.

I like movies a LOT. When I was a kid I used to buy movie scores and watch movies in the car in my head. like...sort of like a projector. Now I'm so sensitive to color and sound that I can't even go to the theater. I don't mind. It's expensive. I still watch movies in my head. I don't like tv much, except for Monk and XFiles reruns. The movies in my head...so much better.

I'm also obsessed with the paranormal and metaphysical. Conspiracy theories count too.

I'm much more interested in a tribal lifestyle than the post industrial world. I feel things so out of balance, and yet I'm to believe this is progress? ugh...

When I was a kid I was either incredibly quiet or really wild. Teachers thought that I was ADHD. I had a lot of imaginary friends. I dunno. How do you sum up your life? There's so much pain and shame I endured from my peers, my teachers, my parents, my family...

Anyway, I feel a little anxious about this board. I had posted a message in the schools/college section and I got no replies. It was sort of important too. I just have a hard time getting to the point. I'm trying to figure out how to apply to school now that I know. Do I tell the school when I apply? Or AFTER I get in? Does AS have a bad rep?

So here I am for whatever thats worth.

Cheers.
Red

Hey Red_Wolf I rarely read the school section so I did not see your post. I like to
answer any post that get no answers if I can.
As for as you question in that post. I say do not tell the school about your
AS diagnosis till after you get in. I base that on other people saying they put
AS dx on their job applications and did not get jobs. Plus most people dont know
AS and it may scare them.
As far as a tape recorder goes If I needed one. I would use it regardless of the rules. But I guess I'm an outlaw

Hi i am new to this whole aspie thing myself as my 13 yo was just diagnosed and i find that I may be too.

try this web address to the Asperger Syndrome Australian Information Centre, regarding what to tell your school as there is a section where you can print off a very comprehensive letter to give to education professionals etc. it explains everything from a layman's standpoint.
see section on schools package




http:members.ozemail.com.au/~rbmitch/Asperger14.htm

Jen

Hi Red_Wolf and welcome...
Inebriated people tend to 'get' me too...

I hope you enjoy wrong planet!

Welcome Red_Wolf enjoy your time here

Welcome Red Wolf!

Hi!

Welcome to Wrongplanet!

I hope you enjoy posting here!

Hi Redwolf, I know how you feel.

I'm 24 and I'm in gradschool and having some similar problems. I'm currently working in a molecular lab, but that hasn't always been my interest... I kinda just said one day that that's what I want to do and am trying to pick it up... and this is where it starts getting hard. I work in a great lab and have a really smart and nice postdoc to be my mentor and he's taught me so much I can't begin to thank him... but I'm kinda having a learning curve issue.

I'm learning all these new protocols of weird abstract molecular things and while I can tell you exactly what's going on in the test tube (it's just so amazing to me all the things going on at this level), I have issues say with predicting the results of any given experiment, ... and it's not that I can't but when I'm asked kinda point blank, i have trouble. I need to take like 20 min and meditate on it cause I have all these ideas that buble to the surface and I can't tell right away which ones are stupid or i have an inclination towards an idea and can't explain why~but that's not always an option socially when my mentor's trying to check if I understand and can go start the experiments... So he sometimes gets frustrated with me and says that I just need to think... as if I don't.


I do really well on my writeups for my results and for when I prepare stuff for meetings with him. He tells me sometimes that he just doesn't understand how I can comprehend things so well some days and then like when he asks me a "simple" question... that I can babble some of the weirdest things. I feel like Clark Kent or something and that my mentor is either gonna figure out I have a problem (which I'm having anxiety about cause I don't want pity nor a crutch) or think that I'm cheating somehow...

So I understand how you're feeling about school performance.

oh man I can relate to the molecular lab stuff strangely enough.

I was born in one.



I'm constantly having to filter out things I would 'like' to say but can't. And it'll be so close to the surface. Today I had to hide in the bathroom just so that I wouldn't blurt something out of frustration.

There are of course hehe, those times that I say some great things and suddenly everyone wants to talk to me. I'm just as likely to have everyone hate me though...mostly they find me odd I think. a novelty....

Do you all have twitching going on sometimes? I almost feel as though my impulses will start bubbling up inside and I get this twitching thing...like tourettes...almost all the time, mostly in public.

Update on that prof that was killing my creative mind....hehe
So today I messed up my graphic design professor's head. We all worked incredibly hard on this project...and he tells people all the things they're doing wrong. Really shoots them down. It was awful. A lot of people had their feelings hurt by it all. SO....he gets to me and I'm supposed to describe my project. Instead of building it up to get shot full of holes by that guy, I talked about how TERRRRIBLE it was. I turned it into the bastard child I wish I never conceived. I pointed out all of the mistakes, but I did it with a big smile.
He didn't have a CLUE what to do. He complimented my project to death because there was nothing left to say.
I was hero for a day I think....hehe. He's a lot nicer to me too.

I'm so glad theres other people here that have similar problems. I went my entire life with this burden and not knowing why I am so different, why I see it all so differently...and socially and school and jeeze, everything! And I'm realizing it's a gift. I get to excel greatly in some areas but can't tell time to save my life.

so what!

Thanks everyone,
Red

p.s. I'm going to check out that site on aspergers and applying for schools/jobs. could be a life saver.

Hey. Welcome to WP.

welcome to wrong planet

if youd like to talk with another female aspie in canada age 29 please PM

i was just diagnosed last year and what a difference its made in my life

You are welcome!