I have no idea whether I have Asperger's or not.
My father is bipolar, but that doesn't really fit me. I know that I am a very straightforward, Get To The Point, Please person, I get angry with things I perceive as stupid or pointless, at people who whine about things they're unwilling to change and so forth. I'm extremely meticulous and it bothers me when others aren't. I have a 4.0 grade average although I despise math, and I'm a very good test taker, although my memory is not photographic.
I do not have any nervous habits beyond smoking (trying to quit) biting my nails (gave up trying to quit) and fidgeting.
I have a lot of trouble making eye contact although I can if I need to.
I was in the Army for three years, but I suspect the depression I sank into might eventually have been the end of me. I have a daughter I worry about a lot because she's two years old and just as cerebral and introverted as I was as a child (and honestly still am). I can hold down a job, but it's very hard when I get so mad I feel like my head will explode when others are cruel, lazy or downright stupid.
I'm frustrated right now because all of that just sounds like anybody and everybody, and for some reason I feel like I just don't fit in anywhere and I want an explanation.
What do you guys think?
19 May 2011, 6:07 am
