So. Yeah. Wow, it's actually pretty rare that I'm flummoxed as to where to begin when posting online, but then again I've never actually found a site that had people who were like me, and not just had similar interests, so there's that.
I was diagnosed as having Aspergers when I was 5 (so 1997, or as I call it, the dark ages), but being that I lived in an area where being different was hidden from the public(seriously, my elementary school refused to let anyone discuss autism), and I got, to be blunt, shafted. As such, whenever I heard about it I was told it wasn't really a big deal, and that I should just try and do my best. As such, I went the narcissistic, "there's nothing wrong with me" route of coping.
I couldn't understand why people were the way they were, why people always asked me what I was smoking(I tend to philosophize and extrapolate in, apparently, a non-normal way), etc, etc, all the same stuff you've probably heard a majillion times.
I was told again and again over the years that I was in fact AS, but it wasn't too severe and not too worry about it, just do your best. Yeah, school was hell, and the teachers all gave me the same "he's smart so his failure is because he's lazy, and if he's not going to work at it, screw 'em." So yeah, school remained hellish and I sank deeper and deeper into depression and failing.
So now it's present day, and I'm going to comm. college and working as a baker, and I was self medicating, and I was bored and pondering Aspergers, so I went and got Luke Jackson's book, along with a Tony Attwood book, and as I'd already read Attwood, I gave Luke a look.
I start reading, and I keep getting those "Oh" moments where I'm like, ooooh, I do that too! So that's why I do this, so that's why, etc, etc. It finally clicked. The symptoms I'd always read gave poor examples of AS, and I never felt like I could relate to it, so I figured my parents and such were misinformed. Once I got better examples(and partially due to self medication which made me more aware of myself), it finally clicked with me, and I was soooooooo happy to finally understand!
Finally, the things that I did made sense! Everything clicked and I understood, and it was really an eye opening experience in general.
So yeah, I'm really happy that there is a place in this weird world for me.
Diagnosis: AS/ADD/NVLD (AS and ADD are offical, but NVLD isn't, that's just my own personal suspicion.)
Also, sorry for this long post, though I suspect it's commonplace here, but eh. So that's me. Thanks for having me!
Edit: And my special interest is Aspergers, so there's that as well.
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Aspie Score: 170 of 200
NT Score: 37 of 200
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