I am 27 years old and have always felt that something was different about me from others. I never really made friends when I was in school. I wanted to but didn't know how and was shy. I had a few friends but they were the ones who came to me. I have always had a bad problem with eye contact. Even today I can not look into someone's face when speaking to them. Even with my family members.
I have always been very nervous around people. I can not handle stress. I went through a very stressful situation once and felt like my body had shut down for several minutes. I felt like I was going blind and couldn't move. I feel like I have hypersensitivity to light and sound. Light gives me migraines so I have to wear sunglasses outside. Some loud noises also make my head hurt. Although those around me are not bothered by it which I have always thought was really strange. I seem to not be able to handle heat very well. I am also usually either too hot or too cold.
I do seem to have obsessive tendencies with subjects that I am interested in. More so when I was younger. I used to be very obsessed with science, astronomy, and dinosaurs. I remember checking out lots and lots of books at the library on these kinds of subjects.
Over the years I have noticed that I do talk too much about my interests. And my conversations are almost always one sided. I was talking to a girl in a chat room once. She told me that she liked Star Trek. So I figured, we both like Star Trek, so I began talking about Star Trek. Several minutes later she got angry and called me self centered, boring, etc and left. I honestly had no idea what I did wrong.
I pace often.
I also think I may have a problem with routines. I haven't been out of the house much for a long time. I am trying to find work, but dread that day because I know I will have trouble readjusting to it. Since I am so used to being home all the time.
I do not have a very good memory. I do not collect lots of information about subjects. I don't seem to excel at anything. I am of average intelligence.
These are some of the reasons why I suspect that I may have Aspergers. But I am really not sure. I would like to go sometime and get tested but I do not know if it would be worth the time and trouble.
Thank you
15 Aug 2011, 4:20 pm
