Hello,
I"m not ever sure really what to say in these :\ I guess a bit about myself?
I found this blog through reading John Holman's facebook entries, blogs etc. I've had paranoid schizophrenia my entire life, but have been able to get by on a relatively functional level without medication luckily. Slight auditory hallucinations etc, and some small visuals (ie. I thought I saw a cat in the gaming store the other day while looking at the DnD books with my partner ;P..there was no cat). So, nothing super strange like aliens or demons lol.
Anyway, I mention this only because after reading quite a few of John's, and his friends on this site's entries I started to notice quite a few things about myself that seemed to be pretty common with people on the autism spectrum. I'm concerned that my doctors in the past may have overlooked this and just chalked my symptoms up with schizophrenia. I'm considering seeing a doctor to help me figure out if this is indeed the case, as understanding this about myself would help me better understand why maybe I have such a hard time with people and relationships (except my partner and parents lol..I'm so attached to ALL of them it's not even funny lol); but I"m hesitant. I'm nervous about doctors, and people in general (I should mention doctors say I have social anxiety as well :\) so it's hard to want to get up and see a doctor. My partner is always supportive, but she can only do so much to convince me to go...my paranoia also makes me skeptical of anyone who can issue medications etc.
Ha, so not so short as I had intended..but that's why I'm here. I"m thinking of going to a doctor next week...so maybe I'll post what they say. With my anxiety even posting on a forums is a bit difficult so please don't be offended if I don't
Quickly: I"m a software engineer/homemaker (meaning I work on projects on and off lol), I'm a huge geek, and shy...me in a nutshell.
Nice to meet you all, and I look forward to maybe working out of my shell, and doing a little self discovery on this site.
Best wishes,
Alice