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Who do you see me as?
Poll ended at 18 Aug 2011, 8:42 am
Crazy? 0%  0%  [ 0 ]
NT in disguise? 100%  100%  [ 2 ]
Quite fine just the way I am? ( D 0%  0%  [ 0 ]
Total votes : 2

Enkidu
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11 Aug 2011, 8:42 am

Hi I'm Enkidu and YES Enkidu converted to numbers by way of 1-26: a-z equals 69 and my real name equals 69 and Enkidu is a mythology character that takes after Orion the Hunter! so no energy is lost in my name conversion : P

Hi I'm dysfunctionally autistic. That's my expression for it because I can be perfectly Neurotypical and look and feel the type but there's my whole being from inside my heart that I can't deny and yes. My functions and my ways of being are choice. I've been "underground" and in disguise as a NT and it internally causes great stress to try so hard to be the ugly duckling. From the bullying to the abuse it all adds up like rocks in my heart and I won't stop until they're all gone and what remains is my beautiful pristine and powerful self. My work is nearly done and at its end. Well I will know how Andy Dufresne from Shawshank Redemption felt that day. To liberate my heart is free all that I am!

Didn't know I was autistic till I was 20 (I'm 22 now) when I was working with severe autistic kids (I love working with them) and a speech teacher gave me one of Temple Grandin's books! I said My GOD! I know I'm autistic. In every part of my being I know I am one from these kin.

So for me it's out of the mystery box. I want to get to know others and connect.



Enkidu
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11 Aug 2011, 8:56 am

Sorry bout the pole but I really feel those who read this will brush me off as a fake. My internal strife atleast thinks this. Having my voice heard where all can see and say anything is hard to come by trust because it seams all I'm good for is being a lier all the time when truth flows from my lips. I need a community that won't put me down and belittle me. I've experienced it all already and I know everything about the ways of Darkness and Abyss as I was plunged into its' endless folds from an age to young. This travesty is not solely experience by me. My experience is not exclusive. Others are here that have been to the same place in their own way. Pain and pleasure are two sides of the same coin. It can flip any moment.

Thus in brooding I remember: Creator is within us. And. This is a love story! ( D

Peace and Love Wrong Planet, I hope to be welcomed by open arms for all that I am : P



Rich-Z
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11 Aug 2011, 11:08 am

Hi. Welcome to WrongPlanet.



CockneyRebel
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11 Aug 2011, 6:08 pm

Welkome to WrongPlanet. :)

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