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Hiya.

I'm new to wrong planet too... I just wanted to introduce myself and say hello.

I live in Woking in Surrey, UK. I'm 34 and am undiagnosed.

I have suspected for many years that I am an aspie as I have so many of the traits. I've always felt like I was different to everyone else. Even when I was little I felt like I didn't fit in and something was wrong with me. I didn't play with other children, no pretend play, just lego but I never had any imagination so didn't know what to build lol. I've completed the online aspie test quite a few times just to check that I wasn't exaggerating or imagining things. Each time I scored 183 out of 200. Earlier this year I was told by a specialist that they suspected I had a sleep pattern disorder in which my whole body clock is off kilter. I read yesterday that sleep problems such as this are quite common in Aspies so the sleep thing kind of makes sense now.

My bf just left me yesterday after 2.5 years as he says I am too hard to deal with, he said I am impossible to live with and make life so hard. I just infuriate him but I don't mean to. I try really hard not to be myself and be how he wanted me to be but I guess I failed. I think I was / am also obsessed with him. Do aspies do that? Obsess about people they are going out with? How the hell am I going to stop doing that and move on and just forget it all. I wish the film 'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' was true and I could take something to forget him. How do I move on and just forget?

So now, I'm single, living on my own. I'm not sure how I'm going to go about meeting people as I don't like to go out and have massive social phobias. I just don't know what to say to people as I am awful at small talk. I don't have any friends for the same reason, I never kept in contact with people as I didn't like calling or seeing anyone. So things are going to be pretty tough for a while / forever?!

Anyway, sorry to blab so much. I've been alone since yesterday morning with no one to talk to since he gave me the news so i guess I have a lot to say.

Thank you anyway for reading this - my verbal diarrhoea (well not verbal, written I guess!).

I hope you all had a good weekend and take care

E

Hi. Welcome to WrongPlanet.

Thank you

And sorry for writing so much

Welcome to WrongPlanet, EssieB!

You didn't write too much, don't worry

I, like yourself, have had and still have to a degree, social phobias. It's slowly got better and I believe you've taken a step forward by posting here

Greetings and welcome to Wrong Planet!

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Welcome to WP!