..although hopefully no genetic *defects* in this electronic version of myself.
hello everybody of a knowing neurological diversity, these are my first few hours in unchartered territory. I consider myself an aspie, although undiagnosed formerly (something Im gonna sort out, when i remember). I am 31 solar years in growth and as such i missed out on being diagnosed as a child (the aspie variation not being formerly recognised until i was into my teens, by which time my grumpiness and self-imposed isolation was indistinguishable from other teens' :- life in the countryside!) as you can tell im one of the ones with a rather tangential grammatical diversity, dyslexia being a key comorbid of mine, but i will try to keep my posts concise.
erm, ok so maybe you want some facts? if not then skip
i was born and then about a year later i received two large forehead injuries within about 6 months of each other, both requiring much stitching. how this has impacted on my cognitive functions is hard to say unless brain scans would reveal anything. i remained virtually silent until i was 4 years old at which point i wouldnt stop talking. for most of my life ive felt like there has been a glass screen separating me from the rest of the world, i can often become completely lost and absorbed in my inner dialogue. music is part of my inner dialogue. ive been musically inclined since i can remember. the music dialogue never disappears, only when im sleeping or talking (i believe they call that 'musical hallucinosis' or 'musicians disease') but really music is just shape for the ears to chew on (and the other senses depending on your place within the synaesthetic order of things) but not really as it is emotion too!
my dad is probably aspie too, not that he'd have the faintest idea what it is or care ( he of the old school stiff upper lip sort of pragmatism ) we are both pedants of a certain kind, that weird kind that understands what you are going on about really but is just too damn anal to admit it, dont get most analogies unless i created them etc etc
whats with all the polarisation anyway? you're this or that? i get rather angry when people put me in a box or assume because im not one thing i must be the other. when i was about 18 i realised that binary oppositions simply exist in the minds of fools, language being an important enabler of this bizarre fad. one of my less interesting abilities is to be able to visualise words in my mind as they appear in a dictionary, even though my grammar is poor (but that has more to do with the time it takes to type AND do all that farting around with capitalisation, apostrophies etc - my mind is already two sentences away waving back at my poor fingers!) but considered as pure shape words take on their own identity from the mere black and white code you see before you. science and poetry are possibly the most over abused non-oppositions, as is the aspie/neurotypical opposition. but ofcourse everyone needs structure, identity etc
ah man, i can keep churning all this thought out wholesale but i'll keep some back for some discussions elsewhere, and now..
..back to the bit that you try to stick to when meeting people before it all goes horribly tangental and they walk off wondering why we're (ie - im) discussing makes of microphones all of a sudden (and for HALF AN HOUR!! !?): ok so well
* hi my body is from planet earth
* i have hazel eyes
* i have a cat named arthur
* i like autmnal colours
* about 5'10" tall..
..er..
..BYE!
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whilst everyone hides behind a glass panel: some of us have obscured vision, others notice no glass at all, whilst some are south-facing