Hello
I'm new to online communicating. I'm not sure if I have some form of autism. I'm a 53 yr. old mother of a girl (just turned 20) diagnosed with 'high funtioning autism'. My husband displays autisitic tendencies. We have an 18 yr. old NT son. This has been a long, journey, with many rewards, but many frustrations and lots of tears. We live in Canada, in a large city, which is great in that we have access to services that might not be available in a smaller town, however, I sometimes feel as though a smaller town might offer more chances to meet people. My daughter has acquaintances at her high school, but no friends, in the 'traditional' sense? I'm questioning myself, because I don't have any real friends myself. I've always felt 'out of step - clueless' in social situations. I've managed to graduate univeristy (eating lunch in the washroom stalls) and get jobs - even got married! (still a shock after 20+ yrs.) There are so many things about 'people' I don't understand, so helping my daughter - reaching out to other mothers is difficult. I've been nervous about trying this site. I guess I hope that I'll be able to find another mother in a similar situation. Perhaps, my daughter could use this site too. She was diagnosed at about age 10. Public school was awful; bullying from the start. We tried an 'alternative school' which was supposed to have a 'zero tolerance' toward bullying, but it was no different. She's about to graduate next year, and I'm scared for her future. We've never had a real conversation together. I try to talk to my cousin (who also has a daughter of similar age) but she gives me replies like 'oh, that sounds like all teens' and she 'knows how I feel'. Is she kidding? It's very lonely and I'm not sure how to change that.
I apologize for the long introduction and promise not to ramble in future posts.
I should also mention that my weird username is not a reference to any particular love of bugs; just a pet name my mother used for me.