I am a devoted Christian .
I converted to Christianity seven monthes ago.
I'm an East Asian,geek from a young age.
I'm a college student majoring in math who want to do research in communication in my future.
I also slightly love computers.
In my childhood,I love to calculate and remember powers of two.
When I was 12,I like to calculate from 2 to 65536
In my high school,I calculated from 2 to 8589934592.
I also loved other geeky things,namely toxin.
Cyanides ,fluorine and other dangerous chemicals were my favourite until three years ago.
Then my parents bought me a computer.
Then I started to love wikipedia and history of some countries,namely Serbia,Croatia,Russia,Poland,Hungary and others.
(You see I use a typical Polish name here,right?)
I also care about all the Christians in the world,especially the Maronites, Copts and Assyrians .
I could not start a romantic relationship so I seek help in Incel Support and love-shy.
I know I have love-shyness.
I don't even talk with any female students in my college,so it is quite difficult for me to start a romantic relationships.
I was permanently banned from love-shy because they thought that I was a troll while in fact I am not.
(I also use the name Czeslaw_Kowalski on that website.I talked too much about my hatred of girls in my childhood which I never told my parents and friendsa because I am afraid of being regarded as paranoid and evil.When I read <Mein Kampf> two years ago I realised in terror that Hitler's hatred of Jews ad my hatred of girls were very similar.
While I am a Christian Zionist
and I love Jewish people very much and always love websites in Israel,he is evil and antisemitic,and his hatred has not be cured and mine has been cured,that's the difference between Hitler and me.
But my paranoia might be similar to Hitler's.
So I thought that I might have some mental illness.
)
When I am in Incel Support,someone there said that he has Asperger.
I did a test and find out that I have Asperger too.
My AQ is 35.
I never think that I am a normal person.
I know I might have multiple mental diseases.
I might have persecutory delusion disorder.
In my high school,I thought that girls in my high school and junior school,who don't know each other,conspirated together against me.
That is my "persecutory delusion disorder".
I might also have other mental illness.
I seek help from this community.
I want to go to the US to further my study and seek refuge from my evil society in which there is too much cronyism.
I want to be a good Christian .
I don't want to be devoured by cronyism,moral relativism and secularism in my country.
11 Jan 2012, 9:54 am
