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Joined: 9 Nov 2011
Age: 38
Gender: Female
Posts: 118
Location: New Zealand

11 Jan 2012, 11:11 pm

Hi everyone!
Posting something about myself seems like a good place to start.

I am a 25 year old woman. I am from Norway, but I moved to New Zealand nearly four years ago.

I first heard about Aspergers 2 years ago, when I came across an article about it. I instantly reccognized alot of myself, and the more info I found about Aspergers, the more certain I was I had it. Finally why I was so different from everyone else made sense.

Nobody except my husband knows I might have aspergers. I don't feel I can tell anyone, until I actually have a proper diagnosis...something I would like to get, but I don't quite know how. I live in a small town, far away from any big cities, so I doubt there would be anyone I could see around here.

Here is a few reasons why I think I have aspergers. I'll probably start rambling, so don't have to read it all if you don't want to. I just want to write it down..

-I have issues with eye contact. I can't look people in the eye when they are telling me something, because all I would focus on is trying to maintain eye contact. Also, eye contact for long periods of time hurts. That's what it feels like atleast.

-I don't socialize well. I don't know what I am supposed to say to people, I am useless at smalltalk.

-I am horrible at recognizing peoples faces. It even takes me some time to realize who my neighbor is if I meet her anywhere except outside her house.

-Social gatherings exhauste me. Even as a kid I had to find somewhere quiet where I could be alone for a while during family gatherings etc.

-I HATE hugs. I am ok with my husband hugging me, but I never initiate it myself. He is also always the first to initiate kissing or any other type of contact. I hug my kids, but mostly because I know they like it. I really don't get why people like hugging, and I tend to make myself look busy to avoid it during goodbyes, or when I meet someone I haven't seen for a long time, even a family member.

-I'm not that bad at sarcasm, and I quite enjoy using it at times myself. I am often a bit slower at figuring out whether a person is joking or not than other people though, and I get it wrong sometimes it they don't use very vivid facial expressions.

-I am very clumsy. I walk into things alot, and randomly drop things. I also walk a bit funny and have a monotone voice appearantly.

- I am sensitive to noise. I remember an incident at daycare when all the kids was standing in a circle singing the same song over and over again, only louder each time(a game the daycare assistants had started). I found it extremely frightening, and it actually felt like my head was going to explode. When they where ''singing'' so loud they where shouting I was covering my ears and screaming.

-I didn't have any wierd obsessions(except for collecting kinderegg wrappings I suppose), but I became very obsessed with certain tv shows and movies. I used to go through my neighbors recycling in hopes of finding tiny pictures of my shows in the tv guides, and then I would glue the pics to my wall. I don't do that anymore :lol:

-Job interviews never go down well. The only jobs I have ever gotten was the ones where I didn't have an interview. I got a bartening job once, but it was a disaster so I stopped showing up.

-I can't handle criticism, and often have meltdowns if things dosen't to the way I had hoped.

There is more, but I really should stop now, because this is getting ridiculously long.

Anyway, this looks like a nice place, I look forward to spending some time here:)