I don't like reggae, I love it.

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I think i might have joined here before, not sure. I use different names here and there and well yeah.

I'm a girl, from Norway. I feel like an INTP stereotype, and I'm a positive nihilist.

Got diagnosed with Aspergers when i was 18 after being thrown back and forth for five years between this and that shrink. Can't really say i "accept" it yet, even though it's been 5 years since. Mostly because they just gave me a label, didn't tell me what it meant or why they thought i had it, but i know i'm... "off".
Another thing thats made me doubt the whole diagnose is that i can read people really well. But i have a very analytical approach to it though, best way to explain it is that it sort of like math. You fill in an equation and the more information you manage to gather the more accurate reading you'll get. If you end up with more then one possible solution then you have to consider what situation you are in, the person you're reading what is being talked about yadda yadda...

I want to learn everything, not going to happen, but yeah i don't care. I think i have ADHD, going to ask my doctor about this because it ain't just that it's impossible to learn everything thats stopping me. My brain is, i call it "me vs. my brain", and my brain is a spoiled brat that can't handle not getting it's way and it's frustrating.

I really liked to paint and draw, but i've sort of stopped that... I don't know for how long. Here is a fan art i made from DA2 bloody hated that game, but that scene was cool.
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Eh, i like games yeah. Different star wars games, Half life 2, DA1, MA2, Witcher 1+2 etc.
Love star wars, jurassic park, carnivale, john from Cincinnati, OZ (the prison series), Pride and Prejudice (it's funny!)
Love lots of different types of music, from Frou Frou to Tom Waitz to Queen to Florence + machine to Faithless to Kaizers Orchestra.

I want to learn stuff about astronomy, biology, physics, geology etc.
If i one day could take part in a dig, where you know i could "touch the bones" of a dinosaur, i'd cry.

Hi. Welcome (once again?) to WrongPlanet.

Nice first post.
Since you wondering about ADHD and to be honest because I am intrested a bit in differences or similarities.
I will tell bit about my experience with it. (You don't have to read this if you don't care or want to.)
I was diagnosed with ADHD at 13 (and with autism at 19).
I can somethimes get annoyed, frustated or/and feel angry at things which aren't really worth it.
At times, specially when I think about the emotion anger, I feel like I carry with me an inner anger, fueled by all kind of things I dislike or am with dissapointed with, etcetera.
I can quite much controll it tough.
Somethimes I can flip a bit out tough. D:
I can also feel quite annoyed by boring activities, dislike listening to boring subjects, find it hard to read to long texts, posts, stories unless I find them intresting.
Often my concentration is poor when I have to focus on things I don't care about or dislike. (I often need to force myself trough them)
Somethimes I feel like a part of me is quite rude and selfcentered. I guess a sort of "**** you, you don't like it, too bad. I do what I want/want everything my way" attitude, I guess.
I try not to let that influence much the way I am/act tough.
Another thing is that I can quite like being vocal and the center of attention and I can be impulsive, tough I am both often not due to my autism.
Same with being quite an active, somethimes even hyper person.
Wich is most notable when I talk with disregard for what the other persons thinks or feels and am just occupied with what I want to tell
and the attention. I don't do this much tough.
My mind can be quite chaotic, tough that is probely more a combination of my autism and adhd.

Anyway, I didn't mean to make this a long post.
Don't know if you recognise much in it or not, nor do I know how much that says.

Anyway, once again welcome to WrongPlanet.

Welkome to WrongPlanet.

The WP Kink

Rich-Z: Thank you (Who knows? 8P )
The most difficult part for me is getting started on something. I know that if i want to read about biology i need to read and write notes at the same time. Then remember the notes. But as i mentioned, it's like me vs. my brain. I want to, my brain doesn't, and the brain is the most powerful one. I sometimes get so frustrated i want to sit in a corner and pull out my hair because of it.

If i finally get started there are two problems that may arise.

1. I'm easily distracted. My mind is racing here and there and a question might soon arise. So off to google i go and i read and my interest goes from the first question to the other. Then i realize I ought to be doing something else. And this goes on and on, either it's something I'm wondering about or it's a "need" to do something else.

2. My brain doesn't want to be used, it's like it's too much hassle. If I'm working on something difficult it shuts down much quicker. An image in my head is that of a mother with a spoiled child at the grocery store. The kid (brain) is begging for candy, the mother (me) says no. And it goes downwards from there, at the end the mother is so tired she gives in.
The year with my greatest grades was my last, in which i learned that getting up during the night and study when i was tires was the best way for me to stay focused and remember. It was like my brain was sleeping but i was awake. So it left me alone.

I too have difficulty starting things.
Too a degree its ADD, but mostly it is because I like to look/think about things in great detail before taking action, the rate at which ''life'' moves is too fast for me to comfortably learn and do things the way I want. And there are so many things!

I will focus on one subject or task. I will think about every detail I can think of, trying to ''paint a perfect picture'', only to have my thought process interrupted by things I cannot control.
I don't get a chance to stop and think about progress I've made. I lose focus. I become depressed. I'll feel like I'll never ''paint a perfect picture''. And in affect I hinder progress. It's a vicious cycle.

This is what makes life with aspergers exhausting

also I just lack discipline

Sure, no problem. Glad to help or just talk.

Don't mean to make the whole thread about it but in response to post of you and oddtism

I too have problems gettings started with things, I guess lack "discipline" (Tough it might be more just being overwhelmed by my disorders.) and am easily distracted (tough I can also "hyper focus" at times at things, like when I'm occupied with something I really like or something that really intrests me.

"off to google i go and i read and my interest goes from the first question to the other."
I used to do that very much. Now a bit less. I remember looking up one thing, and then looking up something mentioned in the information about that things, then that on repeat, somethimes even ending up reading things quite unrelated to what I originally looked for or having searched up a whole lot more related info then was necessary.

I don't know about my brain really refusing, tough when confronted with tedious, diffecult and complex tasks of wich I don't have a clear view on how to accomplish them especially when there are a lot more fun things I could do with my time, I can get quite frustated and desire to do something else and to stop focusing on the task even when I know better and do want too finish it, a part of me just refuses then I guess. I can easily lose focus and/or motivation after some time when working on tasks I don't enjoy, but I can push myself to continue focusing, tough after a long while I will start feeling like really being near my limit of focusing on suchs tasks and then I really just stop with it.

Also @ oddtism.
I agree about wanting more time, I feel like there is never enough time, If only there was enough time to do everything that is fun and interesting and study everything that is interesting and/or worth knowing.

oddtism: paint the perfect picture! ahh.. i know that feeling. I'm usually sick of the images near the end that i don't give it all that i got.

Rich-Z: I bought a tablet with a data plan just because of the google thing, get answers anywhere! I can hyperfocus at times as well, hunger? what is that, right.
The problem with concentration makes it difficult for me to communicate verbally as well, i can't focus and i can't find words and my mind goes for a spin. Real frustrating when it happens and i give up.

can't help you with a dig on "Dinos", thems the "bonemen", they crazier then we were in the field and we did try so hard to keep up our rep. (Bonemen rated # 1 for nuts, archaeo's rated #2, last I knew, the others don't hold a candle, they just sorta gasp in disbelief) No lie. Would human do, bones? Nothing like pulling the plastic off your unit in the morning, still slurping down your morning coffee and look at a grinning skull and ask...what ya got to say today? So what's stopping you from doing this? I did it and if I can, most anyone can, you just need the drive and for that, you only need your heart. I liked the stone stuff, the tools, my area of expertise, in the Northeast Americas. Although to be really good, be rounded in everything you can get your hands on, it will all link up one day, in some form or fashion. If it doesn't link? Make it and get your Doctorate while doing it. Go get em!!

Welcome to WP!

thanks for the welcoms!

postpaleo: my understanding is that you got to wait until another "boneman" dies before you get a chance, and then there is a line too. And i live in Norway, sure we get some action on Svalbard but thats it.

i love that song. welcome

I love Reggae, Ska, Dub, Dancehall, Ragga etc.

I'm from the UK: I'm not black but Jamaican music is part of my culture! The mods and Skinheads were the first people in Britain to embrace black music and culture! without reggae music we wouldn't have Jungle, Hip Hop, 2 Tone, Drum n Bass, UK Garage, Dubstep etc. not to mention the influence reggae has had on punk rock!