I guess I should tell more about myself and who I am and how aspergers affects me, etc..
I am 19 years old and was born in Charleston SC. I had a pretty normal life growing up, as far as I can remember. Nothing too out of the ordinary, always did well at school and had some friends. Around fifth grade or so, the county I was in was split, forcing me to go to another school where I was completely out of my element, socially. I was picked on on a daily basis. I wanted so desperately to fit in but never could. My parents thought the solution to this problem would be moving me to a small town in North Carolina, where I started middle school. Things only got worse from there..
In 6th grade, I was always made fun of and never really understood why. It was around this time I started getting into music, and I would just gravitate towards playing my guitar or watching anime all the time to avoid people. In 7th grade I switched schools again, and in 8th grade I made a list of "people i would kill if i were hitler".. needless to say this didn't work out so well.
The following year I was sent to an alternative school, where I got into a couple fights. My parents decided the solution to this would be homeschooling. this caused a serious strain on the relationship I had with my father. I felt confined by him. I didn't really have friends around this time so i would do nothing but research music. It was also around this time that I was diagnosed with aspergers. To this day I don't think my parents understand a single thing about aspergers.
When I was 17 I was sent to an out of state in Michigan boarding school for other aspies. I was in a state of denial and refused to admit I have aspergers. After turning 18, I moved to an apartment by myself in Michigan. I haven't made many friends whatsoever in this state. I do not think I really can. i often turn to pot and alcohol as a "solution" to my problems and it really doesn't help. I want to stop burning bridges with people and not be so polarizing. I want to find myself and where my place is in the world as an aspie.