Hi. I'm 18, female and I come from Poland.
For as long as I can remember, I felt very different from my peers. And for a long time I tried to find out why I didn't have friends and why I couldn't handle school while others had seemingly no problem with it. I dismissed AS, because I thought I didn't have any problems with empathy and relating to others. I though I had social phobia.
So, due to my social issues I found myself at a psychologist's office and then I was sent to a psychiatrist with suspected depression. And so I was prescribed antidepressants. After I started taking them, I noticed I became less fearful of social situations and of people in general.
But I still had no idea how to approach them.
I have no idea how to chat with people about anything other than my interests, how to spend time with others, unless they suggest something. I have learned about social interactions from books and observation but I can't seem to apply that to myself. There are so many things about making friends and just being casual with your friends I can't understand.
But my real problem is not making friends, but the inability to cope with school. The boredom is killing me from the inside. I could spend all that time learning something I'm interested in, but it's wasted instead. I have been tested to be exceptionally intelligent by my psychologist, but that doesn't really mean much in the world of school.
Anyway, as I read more abou AS I found myself to have a lot of the symptoms, and perhaps I'm not as good at social interactions as I thought I was. But is being diagnosed as an aspie really a big deal? I mean, I find people described as aspies to be perfectly normal, so I just can't understand what the problem seems to be there. Should I do anything about my suspictions? Though I'm not sure I'd be able to talk openly about it with my pdoc anyway.