Waiting for my diagnosis
Hello, everybody!
Let me introduce myself: I'm LemonTree, a twenty-something woman (or girl? Technically, of course, I'm a woman, but I don't feel grown-up enough to let the girl-tag go...) from Norway - that cold and beautiful country that protects Sweden from the cold winds of the Norwegian Sea. I'm currently writing my Master thesis, and my field is literature. I also work part-time in a shop. I feel very safe at work, but all social contact is straining, so I'm always worn out after a day's work. But I enjoy going to work, as I know I need "social training". Besides, my nerdiness and quirkiness are useful when helping customers, so I feel very good about what I do.
Last year, I went through an initial testing round where the conclusion was that I probably had AS, but the place that "helped" me couldn't do much more, it seemed, and since then I've been trying to get help from other institutions and hospitals. I've finally been admitted where I probably should have been sent in the first place, and I'll have my first meeting there this autumn. I've always felt different around people, as if everybody else knew something that I'd missed out on, and after going through two decades of loneliness, bullying, misunderstandings and a general feeling of not being good enough because I don't automatically understand or accept stuff that I probably should, I realised that I probably had AS. Now, everything makes sense, and although I'm somewhat sad because I've discovered that I'll never be "normal", I've gained faith in myself - I've always had faith in my intellectual abilities and creativity, but finally, I don't feel bad about forgetting what's left and what's right, or about refusing to eat something that tastes wrong, because I can pick up on fainter tastes or smells than my family. So, all in all, I'm happy about this, and very eager to get help to make it official!
Besides from this, I live with my mom and my cat, and I'm planning on moving out after getting my degree - if I find a job, that is. I have no siblings, and a very strained relationship with my dad, who I also believe to have AS. He lives in another part of the country, and we rarely see eachother. When not writing on my thesis, reading or working, I spent my time playing Minesweeper, Minecraft and TS3, blogging and looking for my ancestors (as in genealogy, that is - I don't talk to dead people).
I hope this made sense, and that I didn't turn out as utter Norwenglish!
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Welcome! Hope it all goes well (and fast enough not to be a nuisance) with the testing. Took a half year from finally getting into the DPS system to getting the diagnose here, although that was with suspecting only ADD/ADHD at first, possibly aspergers but not certain. Great to see you're doing well!
Hi LemonTree! Welcome to Wrong Planet! Check out the interesting and helpful forums here.
I have always had a problem eating most veggies, especially when cooked. If they are overcooked I just can't eat them. This caused a real big problem when I was growing up, because the only way my mother knew how to cook them, was to overcook them. I was in a no win situation, because I got hassled by my parents for not eating the veggies, but they were absolutely disgusting to me the way my mom cooked them. They taste like some kind of inedible, dead, non food substance when overcooked. I just can't eat them that way. There are some veggies I will eat raw, but not many. I also don't care for beans, but about a year ago I found I could get them down if I put BBQ sauce on them. Since they are cheap, easy to prepare, healthy, and don't need to be refrigerated until opened, I have finally been able to add them to my pantry. I still don't like them, but will eat them sometimes, as long as I have the sauce to put on them. Sometimes I just want something quick to prepare, so I will open a can of beans to have with a side of some kind. Other times I will be out of other proteins, and have to have them, as they are the only protein left in the house. I call it the bean diet--or the running out of food diet.
Anyway, remember that you are among friends here at WP!
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If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.
Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured, or far away.--Henry David Thoreau
Thanks a lot, guys! I really look forward to getting to know new people here
I just read through several of your blog posts - it's somewhat absurd to communicate in English with a fellow Norwegian, and read blogs in English by Norwegians - feels a little like meeting strangers while on holiday, and speak to them in English for a long time before realising that you live in the same city! Anyway, I think I'll learn a lot from your blogging, and it's very interesting to see what others have gone through when they are part of the same system and belong to the same age group I also enjoyed the Aspie Alligators - I've seen the Socially Awkward Penguin, but this one was new to me, and it was especially fun to see the music-on-repeat one - I drive my mom insane on a regular basis by playing a new song or melody again and again and again and again...
Cooked veggies are horrible - I can't understand how anyone would eat them voluntarily... Fortunately, I'm the only child in my family, so at some point, both my mom and my grandparents gave up on me, so while the "grown-ups" eat cooked carrots and peas, I get a raw carrot or a tomato, or a big piece of cucumber I can stand cooked cauliflower, but if it's just slightly over- or undercooked, eating it feels like torture... Once, I actually could smell that there was something off with the cauliflower while it was still in the saucepan! My mom had to taste it, since she couldn't smell it, but she agreed, and I could enjoy a veggie free meal
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Uhm hello, i hope you don't mind but i wanted to say welcome anyway :o And i hope you enjoy your stay, and i really like your avatar *i always take interest in colorfull pictures/photo's xD* I also had a strained relationship with my dad, and now uhm well there is no relationship, i'm very sure when i look at my family and my dad that autism runs thick in the family :x I have pdd-nos by the way, i just use autism as a more general term, its a habit, because a lot of people i met or talk to don't know what pdd-nos is. Anyway i'm getting sidetracked, i'm sorry.
Have a nice day ^^
Haha yeah it is kind of odd! Anyway, good that you found some use for it. Feel free to PM should you feel like it!
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