Well, wow what a month it has been, at the request of exasperated parents and friends I found myself grudgingly going to an autistic services diagnosis. It turns out I have Aspergers. As a child I was misdiagnosed with Dyspraxia and generally thought of in school as clumsy, very bright, but lazy in studies and aloof/arrogant. Something I have carried for a very long time. I thought id "cured" my Dyspraxia when it turned out my special interest in life was music. A statement I know now to be wrong on so many levels. To begin with I felt awful, like I had a problem...Just wanted it not to be true...but during the sessions every question I was asked made sense all the way through my life. I understand now why I was bullied in school, couldnt hit a tennis ball till the age of 12, Have been told in early relationships that I get too attached and in long term ones that I dont love enough, trouble following verbal instructions, that although I like to be friends with everybody I come off as stand offish. It explains why for so long I was caught up in cannabis and drink, because if everybody else was clumsy, overdescriptive, misconstruing other peoples words, then I could camoflage my problems and blend in. Im pleased to say Ive stopped recreating in such a way and for the first time in my life I am completly at peace with who I am Its wonderful. Ive rediscovered my love of the planets and history and fallen back in love with music, my chosen career. Im very much looking forward to getting to know you all and finding more people like me Ill post a wee example of my music when its proved im not a spammer peace