Hi! I haven't been diagnosed with Asperger's but I'm pretty sure I have it. I've taken a couple online tests and they've placed me well within the range of it. It explains quite a bit. I don't deal with people well. I was teased a lot as a kid. Luckily, I had a few good friends who accepted me as I was. They were mostly misfits like me. I've never been good at keeping friends, except one and she died 15 years ago so I guess I really didn't keep her. I hate talking on the phone or face to face. I love modern technology that allows me to type what I'm thinking. I can backspace!
Work has been a challenge. Supervisors don't like me. My current job has been especially challenging. I work hard. I can do more than most people because I do everything much faster than anyone else. That doesn't seem to matter. I've been at my current job for 3 1/2 years (after being laid off twice). The supervisor I had for the first 3 years favored those who were extroverts, cheer-leader types, good attitudes, upbeat people. It's not like I deal with the public. I work in a lab at a medical device company. I got a new supervisor last August. My review for last year was mostly done by my previous supervisor and I didn't get a raise. It seems like my new supervisor is more appreciative of my work and understands my personality more but he still answers to my previous supervisor. Interviews are difficult for me so finding a new job will be tough. Work is actually one reason I looked into Asperger's. They put us through a "Personal Styles" class. One of the engineers was kind of critical of the class and said "Some of these people are probably Aspies." The class was kind of brutal. I was in the far corner of "Analytical" which was no surprise but the class kind of portrayed Analyticals as the ones who are difficult and need to change to adapt to all the Amiables, Expressives, and Drivens.
My marriage is a wreck and may be ending. I just can't deal with living with someone anymore. I don't think my husband understands just how difficult it is for me to be married or how much little things bother me.
Anyway, the thing that keeps me going most of the time is my animals. We have 2 Danes, 5 cats, 2 parrots, and 3 snakes. We also foster for a Dane rescue and an all-breed rescue (to save some bullies). I can deal with animals. They don't care who I am as long as I feed them and treat them well.
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Julie
02 Jun 2012, 9:48 pm
