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Hi, I'm 16 years old and from Finland. English is not my first language so my english skills may be poor. I hope you can forgive it and understand what I try to write.
I'm not sure do I have aspergers even though I've been diagnosed with it. I got my diagnosis of aspergers last winter.
I feel like I don't fit in to most of the aspergers symptoms. I have read a lot about aspergers syndrome online since I got my diagnosis, and the more I get to know about this syndrome the more I feel like I don't have it. I don't have problems with making eye contact, I don't have any special interests, I'm not very obsessed about anything, I don't have lack of empathy, I don't talk in a weird way, I'm not genius.... There is much more things, but I feel too lazy to write all of them.
I still wouldn't consider myself a normal person, I am really weird. I have problems with social stuff and sometimes I act in a weird way. I don't have any friends and I don't know how to talk to people, I always embarrass myself. People at school hate me, I don't know why..
I also have severe depression and social anxiety. Besides of depression, social anxiety and possible aspergers I may also have BDD(Body dysmorphic disorder). I feel like I'm the ugliest girl in the whole world, my reflection in the mirror looks so disgusting that it makes me to puke. I try to cover my ugliness with nice and fashionable clothes and makeup, but it doesn't work.. No one has ever said anything bad about my appearance, people have only told me stuff like I'm beautiful, cute, sexy and so on.. but I can't believe what they say.
Sometimes when I get extremely depressed I start to see hallucinations and hear voices. It makes me to feel like I'm losing my mind....
So after reading this short description about me do you think I would have aspergers? Or am I just a totally schizo girl?
A lot of what you associate with Asperger's is wrong. I've been diagnosed with Asperger's and I'm not even sure if I have it. I don't know if I have a special interest, I'm not a genius, I don't talk in a weird way, I have friends, etc. There's a lot more to Asperger's than what you have been reading online. I don't think this website is good to see if you have Asperger's or not. Talk to your doctor or therapist. They know a lot more.
You say you don't have any obsessions, but it sounds like you are obsessed with your looks. Maybe you perceive your traits/characteristics differently or not even notice them. That happens to me. I never noticed my Asperger's until I smoked a lot of marijuana. In a lot of ways I'm in denial of having Asperger's and still have trouble discerning my idiosyncrasies.
Social anxiety is common with Asperger's. If you don't know why people hate you, then you must not be picking certain things up. I feel weird or act weird sometimes and I think that's normal.
09 Jun 2012, 11:49 am
