I am unsure if I have autism or not.
A friend of mine gave an armchair diagnosis for asperger's several years ago. (This was based on him working as a part-time contractor in a mental hospital. Make of it what you will.) I do have some of the symptoms. But, those symptoms could have alternative causes (due to wholly unrelated medical problems.) I am not in any sort of denial. (They symptoms are real.) But, I do not have any clinical diagnosis, so it seems best to hedge my bets right now.
Regardless of the cause of my symptoms, I have them and need some help dealing with them. I do not plan to get a legitimate diagnosis anytime soon, if only because I do not want a paper trail. (I want to find and keep a better job. Any perception of mental illness can only harm those efforts.)
Similarly, I plan to be terse on these forums. I want to be obscure/unknown here because I do not want anything posted here to be traced back to me in my daily life.
Basic information:
-mid 30s
-social, but picky
-quickly annoyed by people who do not get things
-verbal, preferring writing to speaking (partly due to physical difficulties)
-poor speaking voice
-able to function as an adult
-employed, but living below poverty line
-mix of formal and informal education
-lazy by inclination, but will not neglect basics
I am unhappy with my life, and seek to change it. Some of my problems are related to autism symptoms that I quantifiably have, and I need to work around them.
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