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Hello everyone, in the past few months ive been watching videos and reading articles about aspergers and ive come to the conclusion that i must have it or something close to it on the spectrum. Ive not been officially diagnosed yet, but ive taken 2 online tests saying that I do have aspergers syndrome.

It all started with the suggestion of my ex-girlfriends aunt, she said she thought i might have it, im awfully and sometimes painfully quiet around people. Even at home i tend to keep to myself, im an avid gamer, i played videos games most of my life, im currently 32.

I also suffer from a bit of Social anxiety, i was a virgin til the age of 31. Ive only had 2 stable jobs in the past, worked at a department store for 7 months, i now hold my current job for a little over a year now, im a caretaker, i care for blind and other severely developmentally disabled people actually. The interesting part of this story is perhaps God might have put me there because im also autistic like some of the folks i care for, at the time i started my job i had no idea i might have aspergers, i just thought i was very shy, or quiet, ive always been told i was quiet. 8th grade class voted me "most quiet"

I still live at home with my parents, they are nice and patient with me, they dont know i have aspergers or on the spectrum, but then are not really educated in that field of study anyways, eventually i will tell them about what i have if i ever do get a diagnosis, but it is hard because of my social anxiety disorder to do that. At work im quiet, some may say im aloof or standoffish, although i do try my hardest to conversate past a brief "hello" or how are you doing" ?I rarely get out more than a few sentences if its not work or information regarding my work related.
Ive been told i get confused easily, im not sure what that means.
Ive been told i have trouble with eye contact, i close my eyes alot when i talk to someone, or i have to look away from them, its hard for me to maintain eye contact with someone.
Ive only had one girlfriend my whole life, last year. We broke up because i felt i needed more alone time, i seem to like my alone time alot, i guess she didnt understand that, she also had SA too though, but i dont think she had aspergers.

At work im a good worker, i remember things, although i cant have alot of things going on all at once or i can forget the simplest things like, remembering how many people im serving for dinner, or other simple things, although im not sure this has anything to do with aspergers, it may be add or adhd im not sure.

People see me as a shy, but however they also see that im kind. I know people see my kindness inside of me, i see kindness as one of my god given strengths to offer the world, and the gift of kindness is something i cherish about myself, even though i sometimes find it hard to find good qualities about myself, that is one quality i often am reminded of from my coworkers.

And i guess that is all i have to say about myself for now, untill i think of more things to say heh.

Peace and god bless

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Mick

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