Hello from Oz- isolated yet always in front of a crowd

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Hi All,
I wanted to post an 'intro' for a few days but actually didn't know what to say. How unlike me haha. I actually once organised a Professor to come talk and said "Hello I love your work would love to work with you..."got stuck- script ran out- turned and stared at a plant. She was was left alone in a corner and needless to say she never spoke to me again. Nevermind, it's just she was a neuroscientist with similar interests in trauma and violence that I have. I, and 2 of my children are on the spectrum and I, under the 'radar', also work in the feild. I don't declare as I am so aware of the pre-judgements of our abilities or perceived 'dis'abilities. I have a degree in Psych, minor in Neuroscience but bad at networking- ended up in bloody Management where people yell at me in meetings, calling me a 'psychopath' to which I typically respond that I have one element of psychopathy - the ability to make decisions based on FACT rather than emotion. I am stuck where I am, it is awful. They have 'tea break' where they look at meaningless magazines and talk drivel. My psychiatrist is great- as suggested by him, I just act too busy to join in and if needed pretend to look at these awful magazines. Anyway- sorry, I know that awful truth we all eventually 'get'- friends are only there for talking about themselves or for 'networking' and few intelligent people want to engage in meaningful conversation. I just don't get it all. I read in TA's book recently that 'Manager' is a bad job for us and I agree and am looking at going back to research and post-grad. Happy that I have an understanding spouse though- it does get rocky- I feel like he'd like a gag on me so then I wonder what am I here for? BTW- I have an odd Aspergian score scale for a female (AQ- 44/50- v high, Systemetising 62/80- v high and extremely rare for a female and unfortunately a 5 in EQ- thought I had a lot of empathy!). One question in Baron-Cohoen's EQ test really got me; "I feel distressed when others cry"...they had from strongly agree to strongly disagree but what I'd have answered, if available, was just 'awkward'. So- I have the almost polar opposite of a typical Asperger female profile (usually EQ is higher, systemetising lower) so well anyways hi.
Charlie911

I totally get the "under the radar thing" though I feel like my cover is washing off lately. Welcome btw, I see you're only on post #2!

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Welcome to WP!

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Hiya! Welcome to WP

Welcome to WP!

I got a chuckle out of the professor and the plant thing. Not at your expense, for I have done worse, but well.... it's just funny.