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Hello, I found this site on the interwebs. It's an especially dark time for me now for various reasons. I'm not going to lay out all of my sob stories right now.

All I gotta say is that since I've always felt a little different, and have had a hard time dealing with people throughout life, I finally (duh) started really wondering if there's something wrong with me. I stumbled across Asperger's on the web a couple of years ago, and was intrigued, but didn't follow up due to busy schedule and, um, denial.

I'm not professionally diagnosed, but I'm sure I'm an aspie after a lot of research. Many of those online quizzes, articles, etc. And introspection.

At 47, I think I've gotten somewhat better than when I was a child into my early 30s. But I still make so many mistakes in life. I realize I'm in a very dark depression right now. I'm actually tired of myself. Tired of my own thoughts, and tired of my own company. I wish I had an off switch. I'd like to go to sleep for 6 months. I really don't like myself very much, but I also have some good qualities, so there we are. I've always wondered if it's Asperger's Syndrome or Asshxxx Syndrome. Probably a bit of both. (Hope I'm not in trouble already, I X'd out my naughty word)

Anyway, here I am!

Welcome to WP!

I take it you're a Simpsons fan. I am a very big fan.

Thanks for the welcome. I love Simpsons but haven't watched it in several seasons. Homer is my hero!

Welcome to WP

I'm not around much these days. I am about the same age as you and I found WP a help. If you only recently know about AS, it could be a difficult time learning about it. I find as I get older my socialisation tends to decrease. I have to keep working at it.

Good luck working through your dark times.

Your signature is from a Kenny Rogers & The First Edition (as I'm sure you know)---back when Kenny was a true artist for a brief period.

Ruby is a great song too. Music is an (aspie?) obsession of mine, though not as much as in younger years. I'd love to brag about all the live shows I've seen, but I don't want to get off topic. But I just have to brag that I saw Elvis before he passed on to another realm. Now that's bragging rights!

"Off topic"? But it's your thread!

Welcome

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Ha! Thanks. Newbie mistake. On other hobby forums there's a lot of rigidity about rules, going off-topic, "search the forum before posting a question!" is the one that really gets me.... do they do that here?