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All my life I thought I was as normal as the next bloke. A little different, perhaps, but fundamentally the same.
Finished school at 16, moved on to university. Discovered music, poetry, theatre, dropped out. Wandered the land for a few years.
Learned computers - fantastic, thought I. Feels like I was born for this. Pays well too...

Cut code on three continents, married, raised children, but found no friends, no sense of belonging, no security. Studied - occultism, religion, self, leadership. Cut more code but gained little from it. Well, life wasn't meant to be easy. Decades passed

For my fiftieth birthday, I gained an MBA - just made it to tertiary qualification before my sons. For the fifty-first, I moved beyond the belief in god that had sustained me for half a century. For the fifty-second, I reached an aspergers diagnosis. A relief at the time, but that too slowly turned to torment. Everything I knew was wrong, and then some.

Now I'm fifty-four, stuck like a fly in amber, struggling for foundation. I guess there's a way forward, but the suspicion still lurks that I'm just an ox harnessed to a millstone. Is diagnosis without prognosis any better than a life sentence?

Welcome to wrongplanet.

Make yourself at home.

I hope things work out better for you.

The professionals'll do the diagnosis.

We're always happy to offer prognosises based on our own experiences.


To answer your question, YES, diagnosis without prognosis is better than a life setence.


Anyways, look on the bright side, even if they were equal, *whistles 'look on the bright side of death' from monty python*

Hey, welcome to WP.

Is diagnosis without prognosis any better than a life sentence?


Depends on yer point of view. A lot of Aspies have problems "breaking out of their shell", saying if they act like NT's then they're not being theirself. Well, how's being your true self working? We often need to 'learn' social skills. Small talk at parties, or cubicle chat at work. We need to make better eye contact, and as my missus always reminds me, to speak of our emotions. We tend to be problem solvers, and factual, while NT's love to wallow in emotions. If you haven't made any friends, it could be due to the fact that NT's 'read' you as being unfriendly.

Welcome


The prognosis for most humans is not good.We are and have always been a brutal race of beings.We suffer from compulsive greed and selfishness.The goal of many societys has been to lessen these qualities,through religion,governments,wars,philosphy....which end up being corrupted, when tried to put into practice, by the very nature of our human flaws.Human beings are capable of wonderful acts of compassion but this is "learned" by the individual and not inborn.Even our maternal and tribal instincts are a matter of survival of our genes and our own interests in having a support group(power in numbers and shared resources).

Point being.....Learning about AS is an opportunity to understand the "why" of some of your "traits".That is only the begining.You can focus on things you wish to improve and learn to except the things about yourself that cant be changed or cause more stress to change then it is worth.You cant rewire your brain....neither can an NT.The world maybe created to benifit their brain wiring but you can create your own environment to enhance your own wiring.(changing jobs,inhancing your person space to be more user friendly....low lighting,etc)You can stop forcing yourself to be something you are not and learn to be the best self you can be.

Your issue sounds like, not AS as much as, the co-morbid depression....that can be poor prognosis as well,but you have much company...AS and NT in that area.

Welcome to WP.

i know about asperger's for a few months now, and sometimes it's confusing, yes.

i wouldn't like to go back and sense there is something strange about me, not knowing
or not even suspecting there could be something like AS.

i'll always be lost somehow, just because i'll always feel a bit that way, because to feel one hundred procent sure, it would take an impossible -and thus unreachable- amount of aspects to be fulfilled

but wrongplanet is a bless !
welcome !

Welcome to WP!

Tim

Is diagnosis without prognosis better? Well, for 43 years I've thought I was crazy...now I know there's a reason. It makes things easier for me, and now that I can point people to an explanation, they aren't quite so hard on me. It helps. Whether I can get better or not doesn't matter to me...I know I fit somewhere. That's what matters. Even if I never have a single friend. And my "longtime companion" accepts me. What more do I need? Don't know if this helps...it's just personal experience.

I feel better. Really.