I joined here because I'm looking for answers, which may or may not be here but it's worth a shot. I never thought I'd be considered to have Aspergers, that was always my brother. I'm a 27 yr old female, was able to keep a job (though currently not employed), get married, and have kids. It's been an insane road and very difficult, but I made it this far.
My family was joking during Christmas how I might have Aspergers, which I shrugged off. Later, for fun, I took a test and scored high. Every subsequent test I've taking I've scored high. So I started researching and many things seemed like they were describing me. I don't have any friends to hang out with in RL, I spend my time on the computer (or now, with my kids). I hate social interactions. People confuse me and I hate females and their useless chatter. I prefer intelligent conversation.
I have been diagnosed with having major depression, anxiety, and OCD. I have tried committing suicide and have hated myself and my awkwardness for years. I confuse people and can't keep friends. I've only really had one job at a library and my coworkers weren't that fond of me, except the older ones weren't too bad.
Other than the social issues, I have real bad sensory problems. I cannot stand being touched, I cannot stand it when someone taps, to the point of getting violent, I cannot stand certain noises such as bass sounds or loud sounds. When I was younger I apparently rocked and hummed as a comfort thing. If I get really upset I still do it, but mostly I just bounce my leg. Rocking in a rocking chair or on a swing is still a great comfort.
I can also ramble on and on. But this is why I'm curious about finding an answer. It won't change who I am, but perhaps it can make sense of who I am and how I can deal with my quirks better. I'm currently waiting to be seen by my therapist. Can't get in until Feb
So um... Hi ^.^