I'm new to the fourm, glad to find people who think much like I do, its easyer to accpet when your not alone. I've had the typical aspie life I think, school was rough, fell out a few times, bullyed, isolated but got my HS diploma, bearley but that was enough, I know lots of people but none became friends, the very few friends I have are all over 55y/o and I see them maybe 5/6 times a year. My hobbies are all that keep me sane, I drive a race car and have run figure 8 races, I found after the derby that I earned respect from a number of NTs who could not do it, while not intened that was maybe the best part in doing it, I have a part time job, a typical disabled peoples job toing remedial tasks, I was just givin it meny years go as a kid. I've learned to accpet it and it provides the money to fund a life of sorts.
Well, I've recently come to the conclusion That I can't run from AS anymore, I've have been in deninal about this for more then a decade after diagnois, The charade of trying to look/be normal wasen't working and I'd much rather be Autistic decently intelligent with the social mentallity of a 4 year old then appear normal but stupid and dumb, I can't be some one who I am not, I cant be sorry for something I did not create, thinking like that just eats at you in the long run
29 Dec 2012, 12:01 pm
