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Hello, my name is Emily but on this site, im ZombieBrideXD, im 15 years,11 months and 28 days. i was Diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome in March of 2012, i wouldve been diagnosed sooner if my parents weren't so denial, my mom still believes i dont have it. I also have Dysxaliculia which hasnt been professionally diagnosed yet but i have 2 TA (teacher Asssitants) working with me in math. Im constantly Paranoid, Anxious, depressed and lonely but mostly its just usual buisness. i was bullied but after 9 schools now im just ailienated, which is better then bullied. In a way im a sever aspergers, but mild enough. I do like my autism though, it helps me understand myself better and even helped me cope with being alone and tormented. id really like to meet people who are like me on here, it will do me some good

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Welcome to the forum, Emily, though you probably want the 'Getting to know each other' subforum for an introduction.

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Hi, I think it's best not to use my real name on here but to be a proactive member I thought I should write something..
I'm currently 32 but remember going through a fairly depressive state about 7 years ago. This was the first time in my life where I began to accept to myself that mentally something wasn't right and I started thinking about family genetics and many events over the previous 10 years since I had left school. Mentally I was a state, but I had just finished a long stint of work and began to participate in a very rewarding adrenalin based sport and had the means to travel abroad to do this.
For the first few months after this I was on a continuous high, having met a very understanding and supportive group of people, the days I spent dosed with adrenalin and the evenings drinking and eating out with friends. The feeling and mood I can remember was as if I was 12 or 13 years old again and all the bull**it I remember in my teens and turning into an adult had vanished.
After three months or so my funds had dwindled and faced with the prospect of returning to the U.K. I was lucky enough to be able to find work in my new found hobby. For several years after that although the work and my situation had its ups and downs, I generally felt pretty good most days and positive about life in general.
After returning to the U.K. and working in a normal job and seeing some of my old friends for about a year and a half and spending time with my parents I still felt pretty good. Although there are still a few underlying issues to be resolved, for a long time I believed that if I feel positive then the depressive part of life is over and I can get on with it.
In the summer of 2012 I returned to Mainland Europe, this time in a slightly different situation and with more time on my hands..
Since about July despite being in a fortunate situation in a nice place I started again experiencing depression or what I believe to be low levels of serotonin and decided that it was time to stop ignoring it and speak to a professional.
When I again returned to the U.K. in October I went to see a therapist to ask about O.C.D. which I am pretty shure I have had since early childhood. Apart from telling me more or less what I already knew I did not really gain anything from this experience.
In the past few months however, I have been researching Aspergers and it seems to match my symptoms almost exactly.
In school for the majority of the time I had very few friends and due to behavioural problems was mostly made to sit alone at the front of the class near the teacher. Although there were times in middle school where I can remember being accepted (at least for relatively short periods of time), by upper school (ages 13+) it was clear I was going to have problems. For the first year and a half of of upper school I was bullied and ostracised regularly and got myself into a lot of trouble. At age 14 I was given the option to change schools or be expelled so in the last half term of the 10th year I started a new school.
My final year in school was a nightmare and pretty much everything I tried in the years that followed went the same way and I never understood why I am just not cut out to fit into this society. It took me a long time also to work out that I have a dire problem with my social skills. If a subject interests me or I get on well with a person I find conversation easily. If however, I do not feel comfortable around someone or I have to make small talk I have the social skills of a rock and have even been perceived to be rude or arrogant. This was particularly bad for many years although now in my 30s I seem to have less fear of normal social situations. Anyway enough said I think, in a week from now I am going to pay vast amounts of money for what I hope will be a clear diagnosis of one thing or another. A diagnosis will serve me no practical use except to answer a few questions in my head about my past life and maybe if I can track some of them down a letter to a few of my not so favourite teachers from various schools expressing my thoughts on how understanding they were not.

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I'm trying to work this out, does that mean your birthday is on the 1st? Day before mine

Welcome also to eurozoned

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