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ChristinaTheHobbit
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13 Feb 2013, 5:11 pm

Hello,

I guess this is the part where I'm supposed to introduce myself. Hi *waves.* My name is Christina, I am currently attending a wonderful college where I hope to major in History and then possibly move into the museum business or on to Oxford to learn about rare and antique books. I call myself a hobbit because I connect with that race very well and J.R.R. Tolkien's Lord of the Rings is my favourite book.

The purpose of my joining this board is that I am going through the process of finally getting whatever mental disorder I have diagnosed. My counselor has suggested Social Anxiety Disorder, Sensory Processing Disorder, and Asperger's Syndrome as possible disorders. I am hopeful that it is one of the latter two as they will afford me academic accommodation, which I desperately need. I am a bright student, I currently have a 3.93 GPA in college. However, I struggle with finishing tests and assignments on time. Also, college is causing significant sensory overload problems where noise is concerned, especially human noise.

I don't know if I have Asperger's, but the more I read about it, the more I hope I do since it explains most of the stuff I struggle with and why I have some of the tendencies I do. I am a loner by nature with very few close friends and a good number of "acquaintances." I do not like loud noise and I often want to lash out at people who are being loud. Multiple conversations going on at once disorients me and I therefore try and avoid circumstances in which there will be multiple conversations. I have a lot of anxiety in social conversations and worry constantly that I am missing social clues or misinterpreting them, I am afraid I'm being too pushy or that whoever is with me is bored and I don't know it. I often require reassurance in social situations that I am doing well.

Growing up, I was obsessed with books and patterns. Before I could talk I would utter guttural patterns for hours. At daycare I would prefer to look at board books by myself rather than play with others. I enjoyed social events and being hugged until about the age of five. After that I was a pain for many since I insisted on only talking to or being with one person at a time, other parents would complain that they had to make special accommodations for me or I would become "difficult." Books became my haven and I have been obsessed with them since then. While I wanted to make friends, and did make wonderful friends, very few of them stuck with me. I have had three best friends in my life, two left me heartbroken, and one is still with me. My parents said that I was a blunt child, they would tell me not to say things and I wouldn't listen to them and would say those things anyway (since then I have become better at judging what to say, I usually only say something if I mean it). I also had trouble remembering verbal commands, my parents just thought I didn't want to do chores when they told me to, I honestly just forgot that they told me to. I was never accepted in a social group until I was sixteen at which point I found an awesome church that loved me for who I am.

I have very few social instincts, everything I know has been learned. I can have conversations, but I also talk a good bit about myself and constantly tell stories. My friends have to remind me that I've told them that story twice before and they don't need to heard it again. However, most who know me will say that I am very kindhearted, exceedingly polite, and fun to talk to. I understand, and use, sarcasm well. I have been told that I have a very eloquent, if not old fashioned, diction in both writing and speech.

I also have trouble expressing emotion. I feel emotion very deeply, but have trouble expressing that emotion. I barely cried at my grandfather's funeral even though I was close to him. I have difficulty expressing gratitude and come off as awkward. Someone is hurt or crying and I want to comfort them, but I don't know how so I sit awkwardly and try to explain to them that I feel sorry for them.

I am terribly clumsy and often trip over nothing, drop something and chase it down a hill, dump the contents of my bag on the ground, or generally don't see something coming and trip over it/crash into it. But I am very good at catching things and playing softball.

I have taken several quizzes online. One was the Aspie Quiz in which I achieved a 135 out of 200 for the Aspie score and a 63 out of 200 for the Neurotypical score. I also took the Mind in the Eyes and scored a 19 out of 36 (they said 21 was an average Aspie score).

Anyway, sorry for the life story here, I just want to find someone who understands the difficulties I have, why I fixate on things, and why I'm always asking for extensions on paper (it's not that I put off, it's just that it takes me forever!). Thank you for your time in reading this.



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13 Feb 2013, 5:18 pm

WELCOME TO PLUTO~

When you stay around here long enough, you tend to notice the differences between Aspie and NT writing styles.

I'd say the chances you are an Aspie are likely ;P

Not an official diagnoser though xD


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13 Feb 2013, 5:28 pm

Greetings and welcome to the wrong planet.


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