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I think there is a chance that I'm HFA or high funtioning Aspergers but if i am i suppose that I am so high functioning that it is almost a moot point. Almost moot except for the fact that I don't feel like a high functioning 29 year old gay dude. My longest romantic relationship being 6 months long. Any way I know the problem is somehwere in me but I just can't manage to figure out what exactly it is. I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was a little tyke. I never had friends until high school. I beat up the people I liked in grade school. I remember very clearly sitting in 1st grade and wondering why Billy was giving Suzy a hostess cupcake. I certainly wouldn't give away my hostess cupcake and telling me it's because they are friends doesn't really explain it. I get defensive and fly off the handle for seemingly innocuous events. Being picked on has taken years for me to be able to associate at a friendly thing and not just a bullying thing. I get very obsessive with things that I like. I have met only a few people as gullible as me.

Apparently there is this genetic thing in my family where my male cousin has something called fragile x chromosome. I've learned that this is on the Autism Spectrum and if a boy has it it is usually passed from the mother. My cousin's mom and my mom are blood sisters so if my aunt has the gene then my mother might also. I also have a female cousin with some autistic traits but my mom's family never talks very much so I don't know too much. Actually all of my Mom's side displays certain key traits that my father's side never displays. Any way if I was a carrier of the gene then I would exhibit certain symptoms but at a very low level,

I feel like the only reason I'm so high functioning is that as a child while watching tv I got obsessed with facial expressions and i would sit there for hours watching tv just miming the facial expressions of the characters. Like a chameleon. Is that a thing for HFA peeps? I'd like to hear stories of people who are HFA to see how I relate to them.

Also... Do you ever find yourself telling a story and find that no one understood you? Like, I'm constantly told that my problem is starting in the middle of a story. I don't at all know what they are asking me to change. Like did I internalize with an internal monologue for the first part of the story?

I have trouble expressing my true feelings and try to express it in what I do for people and it has gotten me in trouble and hurt me too-that's what I end up doing and have been accused of not being understood in the way you describe

Hmm.. It's hard for me to tell 100% because I honestly think that even if I have it that I've learned how to cope with any possible HFA. I've been obsessed with facial expressions and people for a long, long time.

You've learned to cope well enough to get through life as well as you have up until this point, but you don't know what you don't know - I didn't.

30, also gay, just figured out my own AS/HFA 6 months ago. I've read a few books, read online, learned a lot.. and it's been extremely beneficial to read and learn this stuff so that I can recognize various ASD traits in myself and work on strengthening whatever weaknesses I happen to catch. So far so good.

Do yourself a huge favour and read this book to really kickstart your learning about yourself:

http://www.amazon.com/The-Complete-Guid ... ny+attwood

and from there you'll figure out a whole lot of possible next steps of things to learn, things to practice, things you could improve etc.. and like the homo cliche goes: It gets better.