Timeline of my life...read some... get inspired

Post Reply New Topic

1984: Was born in June 13 1984 in my living room in Mattapoisett MA
1987 3YO: My parents divorced when I was three.
1987 3YO: I became self aware. I realized who people were and that I was the only person seeing it out from me.
1987 3YO: I started understanding that I was different in some way and I didn’t like it.
1987 3YO: I went to a hospital because I had a speaking delay. Doctors said I would have to be institutionalized. I remember it.
1988 4YO: I started getting very interested in trains. I used to run around the house pretending I was one.
1988 4YO: I used to draw pictures of trains a lot.
1988 4YO: I used to think none living things such as trains were living too and I wanted to be one.
1988 4YO: I had trouble liking myself because I thought I was ugly/different and that made me not like other people.
1988 4YO: Power lines used to scare me for some reason.
1988 4YO: I used to misbehave because I was jealous of others because I thought most people where better and more fortunate than me.
1988 4YO: I used to think roads, dark hallways, or stairwells where I couldn’t see the end went on forever.
1988 4YO: I was extremely curious about things that seemed to go on forever.
1988 4YO: When ever I saw other animals like birds, dogs, or cats, I wish I could be them because I thought they were beautiful.
1988 4YO: I cut a tail off of my sister’s gerbil because I was jealous of it because I thought it looked beautiful and knew I couldn’t be one.
1989 5YO: Even though power lines scared me somewhat, they also started to interest me.
1989 5YO: I used to draw many pictures of powerlines.
1989 5YO: My drawings of trains started looking really good for someone aged five.
1989 5YO: I drew pictures of trains and power lines everywhere in the house, on the wall, and in the car.
1989 5YO: I grew really close to my mom and was scared of other grown ups because I mistakenly thought they were more mean.
1989 5YO: I went to a special needs school. It reduced my self esteem even more because I thought I went there because I was unfortunate and different.
1989 5YO: my lack of self esteam cased me to miss behave and get into trouble.
1989 5YO: my misbehavior made my sister resent me somewhat and tried to exclude me when her and her friends played.
1989 5YO: I thought there was something awfully wrong with me when my sister excluded me.
1989 5YO: my mom used to often listen to Hindu Chants.
1989 5YO: I started to enjoy listening to Hindu Chants like my mom did.
1989 5YO: When I enjoyed listening to chants, I would put my year next to the radio and my whole body would feel tingly static like electricity.
1989 5YO: looking at curtain things like power lines, street lights, or florescent lights used to scare me
1989 5YO: whenever I would see these things, I would feel a waves of off energy that started from my head and fill my body.
1989 5YO: feeing these waves of energy used to scare me when I was a kid.
1989 5YO: sunsets used to scare me because the vibrant colors looked so intense to me.
1989 5YO: I went to a hospital in Boston MA for kids with disabilities to get testing done. The doctors suggested my parents that should I live at the hospital permanently.
1989 5YO: My mom thought that I should live at the hospital. My dad disagreed. I ended up not staying.
1990 6YO: I continued to draw trains and powerlines a lot.
1990 6YO: Got obessed in palm trees for a brief month. I used to want to wear palm tree shirts all the time.
1990 6YO: whenever I wore a palm tree shirt, I felt like I became a part of the palm tree and it have me a wonderful feeling.
1990 6YO: I used to get really upset when my sister wore palm tree shirts.
1990 6YO: my mom told me that there were palm trees in Florida and I really wanted to go but my mom couldn’t afford it.
1990 6YO: I would often pretend I would fly to Florida and visit there when I was playing.
1990 6YO: went on mile long bike trips on a daily basis. I liked the feeling of going on a long adventure and it felt freeing in an unexplainable way.
1990 6YO: I often had very blissful dreams of driving on a highway and enjoying how I was driving a long with all the other cars appreciating how I was a part of it.
1990 6YO: My fascination of powerlines increased.
1990 6YO: started building powerlines in the front of the yard in my house using large sticks taller than me. My mom bought me wire from the hardware store.
1990 6YO: started getting interested in electricity
1990 6YO: tried to take a plug out of the wall and got a shock
1990 6YO: lightning storms used to terrify me.
1990 6YO: lightning storms terrified me so much I was afraid to go outside on cloudy days, at night --even during the winter.
1991 7YO: started playing Nintendo and became obsessed with it.
1991 7YO: became obsessed with Mario. Always wore a Mario shirt everyday and when I didn’t I got upset.
1991 7YO: I loved wearing Mario shirts because I loved Mario and felt I was connected with him and that gave me a fantastic feeling.
1991 7YO: I started drawing Mario and I replicated the images perfectly.
1991 7YO: people were awed by my artistic skills. I however didn’t like the compliments because it made me feel different.
1991 7YO: learned how to wire circuits and make light bulbs work from a battery.
1991 7YO: took every electronic device in the house apart to look at the circuit boards
1991 7YO: I started taking everything apart because I was curious in what the circuit boards looked like inside.
1991 7YO: I broke many electronic devices including my Nintendo, my sister’s radio, and my mom’s answering machine from taking them apart.
1991 7YO: I unscrewed all the covers in every electrical box in my dad’s house to look at the wires inside.
1991 7YO: started first grade and had an aid work with me for the next three grades
1991 7YO: I didn’t like having an aid because I felt like I was different and unfortunate this made me hate my self more.
1991 7YO: Miss behaved a lot in school. I screamed, yelled, swore, and hit my teachers a lot in school.
1991 7YO: I missed behaved in school mainly because I didn’t like myself and was angry that I felt different.
1991 7YO: In spite of my bad behavior, I was well liked in school. Everyone admired my uniqueness/ creativity.
1991 7YO: students loved my artistic talent, my interest in Mario, the songs I sang at recess, and my sense of humor.
1991 7YO: was jealous of a lot of other people in school though because I thought they were more fortunate then I was.
1991 7YO: I was often depressed because I wished I was like most of the other people.
1991 7YO: I became obsessed with listening to Hindo chants. It felt like watching a movie and I enjoyed the positive feelings it gave me.
1991 7YO: I used to sing Hindu chants out loud while swinging on the swings at recess.
1991 7YO: I also sang songs by Madonna and Paula Abdul on the swings and mix the songs up with chants a long side.
1991 7YO: At home my mom bought me a tambourine and I used to sing chants and record them on the radio.
1991 7YO: My mom took me to an ashram and I thought it was extremely fascinating.
1991 7YO: I was sensitive as a kid. Most clothes used to really bother me. I would tug and chew on my cloths and throw fits when wearing them.
1991 7YO: My parents tried to force me to get used to clothes that bothered me but I struggled wearing them.
1991 7YO: My mom had a nervous breakdown due to her bi-polar disorder. She had to be sent to the hospital for a week.
1991 7YO: I thought my mom’s nervous breakdown was my fault because I misbehaved a lot.
1991 7YO: I stayed with my dad and stepmom’s house while she was in the hospital. I didn’t like going over there.
1992: 8YO: I thought my dad and stepmom where nice but I didn’t like going there because they were stricter then my mom.
1992: 8YO: My 2nd grade teacher felt bad about how clothes bothered my and talked to my parents about it.
1992: 8YO: Eventually my parents decided to not let me wear clothes that didn’t bother me.
1993: 8YO: for the next four years, I wore only white t-shirts, curtain Mario shirts, and sweat pants. I was really happy.
1992 8YO: got interested in pipes. Stole pipes from a construction site and built pipe networks around the house.
1992 8YO: I got interested in pipes because I got fascinated hearing the water come down them at my dad’s house.
1992 8YO: I flushed the toilet at my dad’s house repeatedly and run down the basement to hear the water go down the pipes.
1992 8YO: The boiler room at my school used to scare me because it was loud but I soon became fascinated in it.
1992 8YO: I started getting obsessed with boiler rooms and furnaces.
1992 8YO: used to draw lots of pictures of furnaces and they looked really good.
1992 8YO: I begged my mom to buy me pipes from the hardware store.
1992 8YO: I built a prototype boiler room in my garage using a large box and the pipes I had. It looked really close to an actually boiler found in a building.
1992 8YO: used to get jealous and hate everyone at my school who had a big furnace in their basement.
1992 8YO: My mom had another nervous breakdown. This time she fortunately recovered quicker.
1992 8YO: I tried to overcome my fear of lightning and I started to get interested in it.
1992 8YO: I became obsessed in lightning.
1992 8YO: Every day I would hope and pray there was a lightning storm.
1992 8YO: During lightning storms I often went up on the roof to watch the storms better. My neighbors called the police many times.
1992 8YO: I drew many pictures of lightning and people liked them.
1993 9YO: Saw the movie Free Willy and started getting obsessed with Wales and Dolphins.
1993 9YO: became depressed because I wanted to go to Florida and go to Sea World to see and pet the a whales and dolphins.
1993 9YO: used to get jealous and hate everyone at school who got to go to Sea World and pet a dolphin.
1993 9YO: Florida became a sort of land of dream. I wanted to go there really bad.
1993 9YO: I started getting obsessed with trains again.
1993 9YO: I used to ask my mom to take me to a railroad track every weekend to walk on it.
1993 9YO: my mom had another nervous breakdown, this time more severe. She had to go to the hospital for a week.
1993 9YO: the thought of anything bad happening to my mom or having to leave her was one of my biggest fears.
1993 9YO: my dad and my step mom got mad at me one time and told me I was contributing to her nervous breakdowns.
1993 9YO: I felt like a terrible person for believing I was contributing to her bi-polar illness.
1993 9YO: my older sister got depressed because of our mom’s illness.
1993 9YO: My sister tried to take care of me because my mother sometimes couldn’t sometimes.
1993 9YO: I took my sisters care for me personally and thought she was being mean and bossy.
1993 9YO: I had trouble getting along with my older sister due to her bossy nature but realized when I got older that she was looking out for me.
1993 9YO: Me and my older sister often got into fights because she thought I was being a brat, how I often misbehaved, and that my mom spoiled me.
1994 10YO: I had a stepsister.
1994 10YO: continued to build large power lines using sticks around my house. I even built a small scale substation.
1994 10YO: built electric bells out of scratch and wired them around the house because I was fascinated in the bells at school.
1994 10YO: was interested in street lights because I liked the way they changed colors when they turned on.
1994 10YO: built a double street light post in my backyard and made it light up.
1994 10YO: I started to like myself more. I realized I was kind of fortunate in many ways and appreciated my uniqueness.
1995 11YO: My mom moved away from me to Michigan and I was sad. I lived with my dad and stepmom.
1995 11YO: I started to not to like myself again because I felt unlucky that my mom moved.
1995 11YO: me and my older sister grew closer because we both tried to cope with our mom being gone.
1995 11YO: My dad and my step mom helped me be aware that I had a bad temper.
1995 11YO: Dad and my step mom were very disciplined in trying to help me control my temper but I had a hard time improve it.
1995 11YO: I started to not like myself even more because I wish I didn’t have a bad temper like other people.
1995 11YO: Dad and my step mom tired to have me get used to all clothes and not have them bother me.
1995 11YO: I started wearing colored t-shirts but collared shirts, and pants with pockets still bothered me.
1995 11YO: dad and my stepmom decided it would be okay if I didn’t wear cloths that bothered me as long as I wore different t-shirts.
1995 11YO: I grew closer to my dad and my step mom and knew their discipline was helping me a lot in many areas.
1996 12YO: I got into doing artwork on the computer. I drew many drawings using pixel.
1996 12YO: Got interested in frogs. I used to go to a frog pond every night with a flash light and makeshift boat to catch them.
1996 12YO: I used to bring frogs to school a lot and everyone loved it. They often jumped around and mated in the classroom.
1996 12YO: I realized I enjoyed doing things with a bunch of other people doing similar things because it invoked a feeling of love and belonging.
1996 12YO: used to go on a lot of bike rides pretending I was motor biking with a bunch of other motor bikers to appreciate the feeling of love and belonging to a whole.
1997 13YO: Started getting interested in model rockets and built rockets out of scratch using household material that flew almost 800 feet in the air.
1997 13YO: I started to like myself more.
1997 13YO: I became popular in 6th and 7th grade because everyone liked who I was and how I was unique.
1997 13YO: I really enjoyed feeling liked. I felt like I was part of a whole and started loving everyone and it was an awesome feeling.
1997 13YO: set a new year’s goal to try to control my temper more –was somewhat successful but failed fairly quickly.
1997 13YO: continued wanting to control my temper but still struggled on successfully doing so
1998 14YO: Moved to Michigan.
1998 14YO: I became aware that I had a learning disability because I had trouble fallowing directions.
1998 14YO: When I moved I helped Dad and my stepmom with the packing but I had trouble understanding what they were asking me to do.
1998 14YO: I started to question my intellect & think I was dumb because how my Dad/step mom got upset with me when I couldn’t follow directions.
1998 14YO: I became extremely determined improve on the areas that made me feel dumb.
1998 14YO: I decided to take school more seriously when starting 8th grade to improve on my learning disability.
1998 14YO: I also decided to try to make friends because I realized the importance of having social skills.
1998 14YO: I also forced myself to wear clothes that bothered me due to my sensitivity to fit in.
1998 14YO: I completely over came the struggle of clothes bothering me due to my desire to fit in 8th grade and make a good impression.
1998 14YO: 8th grade was a struggle.
1998 14YO: people were more judgmental at the new school and I got made fun of.
1998 14YO: getting made fun of decreased my self esteem and social confidence significantly.
1998 14YO: I wanted to feel like I had a belonging and have of love for everyone by feeling like I was a part of a whole like I felt in 7th grade.
1998 14YO: I started to not like myself again.
1999 15YO: thought I couldn’t make friends, thought I was ugly, and started getting really shy around people.
1999 15YO: I decided not to be myself anymore.
1999 15YO: I tried to be someone different so I could fit in and make friends easier and feel better about myself.
1999 15YO: I started to learn a lot about social skills and how to fit in but I wasn’t as happy not being myself.
1999 15YO: people in 8th grade started liking me more but I was extremely unconfident socially. People my age terrified me.
1999 15YO: I felt like I was a completely different person living a different life. It felt weird but I got used to it.
1999 15YO: Was often jealous of my stepsister because I felt like my step mom spoiled her and treated her much better than me.
1999 15YO: I felt like my stepsister’s life was always wonderful, easy, and never a struggle compared to mine, and it often frustrated me. I still loved her though.
1999 15YO: went into high school. I found high school easier then 8th grade.
1999 15YO: I got much better grade (As and Bs) and I felt like my dedication in catching up academically was paying off!
1999 15YO: I was however still way behind in reading (I had only a 5th grade reading level). I tried to read as much as I could in my spare time.
1999 15YO: Whenever I did reading assignments, I often threw fits because I had a hard time reading and understanding it.
1999 15YO: Joined rowing crew. It was a tough dedicated sport-- had to practice twice a day –early in the morning and late at night.
1999 15YO: even though rowing was tough and involved a lot of working out, I enjoyed it
1999 15YO: I enjoyed rowing because I liked feeling like I had a sense of belonging; being part of a team. It invoked the same feeling of love like I did when I was accepted in 7th grade.
1999 15YO: improved a lot in my social skills at rowing however I still wasn’t being myself
1999 15YO: I rowed for three years starting this year
2000 15YO: I started thinking I didn’t have a learning disability anymore.
2000 16YO: got interested in electronics. Started building my own home made working circuit boards
2001 17YO: classes got harder and I struggled in school much more than most students.
2001 17YO: I became aware that I definitely had a learning disability.
2001 17YO: I was upset when I found out I had learning disability due to my struggles in school.
2001 17YO: my self confidence decreased when I found out I had a learning disability.
2001 17YO: improved on my social skills more.
2001 17YO: I was a happier person because I felt like I was learning to socialize better but I still wasn’t always happy.
2001 17YO: was often jealous of people because they could socialize better and learn things easier.
2001 17YO: I continued to not like the fact that I had a bad temper.
2001 17YO: I set up a goal in the middle of the year to try to control my temper again. I did pretty good for the first two weeks but then the goal failed.
2001 17YO: I became really fed up with having a bad temper and knew it was affecting the quality of my life.
2001 17YO: I started trying to seek help on my own in trying to improve my temper, and not be jealous of others, and be happier.
2001 17YO: I set goals to improve on my reading skills: I read a lot during the summer.
2001 17YO: My reading skills were much better by the next school year.
2002 18YO: me and my older sister grew really close
2002 18YO: my older sister used to help me try to improve on my social skills and take me out with her friends
2002 18YO: continue my interest in electronics: built my own cassette player out of scratch
2002 18YO: Continued to seek out help in improving temper, jealousy, and happiness
2002 18YO: mom was reading books by Joshua David Stone about spiritually awakening and about unconditional love and told me about it.
2002 18YO: my mom told me what she was reading & that it could help me with my temper
2002 18YO: I started reading some of his stuff and immediately got inspired and found the solution to my temper/jealousy/unhappiness my path started here!
2002 18YO: I called this amazing goal awakening.
2002 18YO: I learned that we are here on this planet to learn to love everything unconditionally
2002 18YO: I learned to love unconditionally is to understand fear/hate/suffering is from a false belief
2002 18YO: You are a cause of your reality and you can make your reality fear based or love/pleasure based
2002 18YO: seeing everything in unconditional love and enjoyment is called the GOD perspective
2002 18YO: I learned I am here to completely overcome fear (ego) perspective and replace it with a God perspective which is based on truth
2002 18YO: I learned every challenge and misfortune is like a test from god to teach you to remain in a God/Loving/pleasure perspective
2002 18YO: once realizing that, I felt like all my struggles i.e. temper, jealousy, suffering from learning disability had a solution
2002 18YO: I called learning how to do this “spiritually awakening.” I was really determined to spiritually awaken.
2002 18YO: the rest of this year was amazing and I felt very happy and at peace
2002 18YO: I loved myself more
2002 18YO: I was improving on controlling my temper
2002 18YO: My social skills were improving big time
2002 18YO: I felt like more a confident person
2002 18YO: I had a girlfriend and I was really happy.
2002 18YO: I felt like I was being accepted, and I was making friends without much of a struggle.
2002 18YO: I felt like I was completely overcoming my social struggles.
2003 18YO: I set a bunch of goals for this year to improve my reading and learning skills.
2003 18YO: I read many books during my spare time and my reading speed/comprehension improved.
2003 18YO: I was happy my reading skills were better but I was still struggling in school.
2003 18YO: I most importantly tried to make working on spiritually awakening a very important goal.
2003 18YO: worked on seeing every challenge in life as a spiritual test for spiritually awakening.
2003 18YO: sometimes I was able to live a challenge in the God/loving/sufferless perspective; sometimes I didn’t but I tried none the less.
2003 18YO: I found out my girlfriend cheated on me, had another boyfriend, and never liked me. During the break up, I managed to not let it make me mad.
2003 18YO: I was proud of myself to not be upset about the breakup.
2003 18YO: I however stared getting more upset about the breakup later.
2003 18YO: My struggle in remaining in a God/loving/suffer-less perspective made me feel discourage about whether I could actually spiritually awaken.
2003 18YO: I had another girlfriend this year and she broke up with me and I also felt upset about it for a while.
2003 18YO: I was upset with my second girlfriend because she never made out, never fooled around, and never opened up to me.
2003 18YO: I started not feeling accepted in school again at times.
2003 18YO: My socialization skills however were much better compared to a few years ago.
2004 19YO: I set more goals this year to improve my learning abilities, social abilities, and spiritually awakening more.
2004 19YO: I used a chart to help me master the god/loving/sufferless perspective to keep me on track.
2004 19YO: sometimes I felt it was overwhelming to always remain in a god/loving/sufferless all times. My mind would sometimes burn out but I didn’t give up.
2004 19YO: I constantly read Joshua David Stones book “how to release fear based thinking” which helped started my desire to awaken.
2004 19YO: I learned that serving also helps you awaken and master the god/loving/sufferless perspective more.
2004 19YO: I tried serving more – I tried helping people out, making them happy, and figure out ways to help others spiritually awaken.
2004 19YO: I found it hard to help other people awaken because they often disagreed with my belief and think I was crazy. It was discouraging.
2004 19YO: I tried to be nice to people, even if they were mean to me to inspire them to spiritually awaken.
2004 19YO: I however found this “being nice thing” was hard because I notice people would take advantage of me.
2004 19YO: I found it hard to remain loving when people were being mean to me, sometimes I would feel angry and then feel discouraged about spiritually awakening.
2004 19YO: Whenever I felt discouraged I would try not to give up and lose faith on spiritually awakening.
2004 19YO: I learned that reading affirmations daily helped because it programmed my subconscious mind.
2004 19YO: my desire to spiritually awaken was a driving force to continue to improve other areas in my life. i.e. my learning disability.
2004 19YO: I did whatever I could to improve my reading skills, social skills, and other learning skills.
2004 19YO: I took my ACT test and scored 97% on reading.
2004 19YO: I got accepted into three top engineering schools in the state.
2004 19YO: I decided to go to Kettering University
2004 19YO: I set many goals to try to improve my chance of passing classes in the fall: memory exercises, paying attention exercises, and read.
2004 19YO: Every day during the summer I spend two hours a day doing exercises to improve my learning skills. They were exhausting.
2004 19YO: went to Kettering in the fall.
2004 19YO: Going to Kettering was very hard.
2004 19YO: At Kettering I barely passed classes and spend about 5 hours a night studying.
2005 20YO: I became overwhelmed with trying to spiritually awaken. Struggled keeping the god/loving/sufferless state and being nice/altruistic all the time.
2005 20YO: I eventually gave up on spiritually awakening for this year but the desire was always in the back of my mind.
2005 20YO: my mother starting giving up on awakening as even more then I did.
2005 20YO: I stared hanging out with other people with learning disabilities and became friends with them. To find people to be myself with.
2005 20YO: even though my parents didn’t advise me to hang with others with disabilities I felt it was good because I was more myself without worrying what others thought.
2005 20YO: I thought about dropping out of Kettering many times but I didn’t give up.
2005 20YO: I did various memory exercises to try to improve my memory. It was tough but I knew if it would help me study easier it would worth it.
2005 20YO: went to Florida for the first time with my dad, stepmom, and step sister. I really enjoyed the trip and was happy I finally went there.
2006 20YO: I decided to make a goal this year to try to work on spiritually awakening again.
2006 20YO: I did much better on mastering the love/god/acceptance perspective in different situations but I wasn’t perfect
2006 20YO: I often wished I met other people who were also determined to spiritually awaken.
2006 20YO: towards the end of the year: I learned to look within for more wisdom in how to awaken—find ways to prove that the spiritual ideas I learned were true.
2006 20YO: I also learned to pray to god more to help me awaken.
2006 20YO: I got hired to work at a Power Utility Company as a co-op. I was extremely excited.
2006 20YO: I didn’t do well at that job because I had a hard time understanding, focusing, and fallowing directions.
2006 20YO: I was told I was no longer able to work at the Power Utility Company anymore. I was upset.
2006 20YO: I decided to drop out of Kettering.
2006 20YO: started feeling discouraged about my chances of making a decent living due to my learning disability.
2006 20YO: My mom completely gave up on trying to awaken. I tried to stop her from making the decision but she refused.
2006 20YO: I felt bad for my mom and wanted her to try to spiritually awaken again but she would get angry and tell me to leave at me whenever I tried.
2007 21YO: moved to South Carolina with my parents
2007 21YO: It was hard leaving my friends behind. I felt lonely and wanted to make more friends.
2007 21YO: I couldn’t find any friends and I didn’t like it.
2007 21YO: I however continued to try to look at everything in a loving/acceptance/god perspective but it was hard sometimes
2007 21YO: I learned a lot of wisdom this year that helped me master the spiritually awaken & master the loving/acceptance/suffer-less perspective.
2007 21YO: I started going to Unity Church –there I was happy to meet people with similar interests/goals in spiritually awakening.
2007 21YO: The Unity Church community helped me learn more wisdom in spiritually awakening.
2007 21YO: I learned that we are all connected.
2007 21YO: I learned that we are all made in the image of god.
2007 21YO: I learned about the law of attraction –we can create whatever we want in our life by simply believing it on a deep level.
2007 21YO: I learned to become a reiki practitioner. I sent reiki to myself and others and I found it very helpful.
2007 21YO: The things I learned this year made it easier to spiritually awaken and be in a loving/god/none suffering perspective.
2007 22YO: I went to Trident Tech and majored in Digital Media
2007 22YO: School was still a struggle for me but it was much easier than going to Kettering.
2007 22YO: I continued try to improve on my memory by doing exercises but I didn’t notice much results and so I stopped.
2008 23YO: This year I learned a lot more wisdom them help me awaken easier and be in a more loving acceptance perspective more.
2008 23YO: I wanted to hook up with someone very bad and often went to the club every weekend but never succeeding on hooking up with anyone.
2008 23YO: I was often upset/depressed because I wanted to get laid/hook with someone and never did because of my social struggles.
2008 23YO: I became a reiki II practitioner
2008 23YO: learned reiki really helped me in many ways 1) helped give me wisdom when I’m stuck 2) helped put me in the right state when unhappy/angry/stressed
2008 23YO: I learned that everything in the universe is infinitely amazing in its own unique way in truth.
2008 23YO: I learned that more we let go of judgment/unnecceptance the more well see that everything amazing in its own unique way.
2008 23YO: learned that focusing on the fact that I am connected helped me also get out of a negative state
2008 23YO: Understanding that I’m connected often helped me deal with the fact that I had trouble finding women to hook up with.
2008 23YO: Understanding that I was connected often made masturbation more amazing. However I still wanted to actually hook up with someone.
2008 23YO: I had trouble connecting all the spiritual ideas I’ve learned so far and making them one idea to focus on at all times.
2008 23YO: I however had trouble figuring out why serving others helps you awaken.
2008 23YO: I knew serving helps you awaken because your connected and your expressive love but that wasn’t enough to really give me the drive to do so
2008 23YO: I send a lot of people reiki to help spread my love and help others awaken
2008 23YO: I also sent the earth reiki and good energy to help heal the planet as well as other global issues.
2008 23YO: I had trouble figuring out what kind of field I should get into that would be enjoyable and that I felt I would be good at.
2008 23YO: Animated a cartoon movie called Fooling to the Unlimited. It was an hour long.
2008 23YO: My friends really liked Fooling to the Unlimited.
2008 23YO: Went on a road trip on my own to Florida. Drive 600 miles all in one session. Learned how much I loved Florida.
2008 23YO: Considered Florida as a sacred place because I thought it was an interesting place to go being the land was located in the ocean surrounded by water –kind of like being on an island.
2008 23YO: I finally met some new friends. I hung out with them sometimes and talked about spiritual stuff.
2008 23YO: I finally got hooked up with a good looking girl and got laid. I was so happy that night I didn’t go to bed but instead went on another 600 drive down to Florida to appreciate the joy I had.
2009 23YO: This year I kept working hard to learn more wisdom on how to awaken.
2009 23YO: I struggled and sometimes got overwhelmed in how to integrate all these ideas I’ve learned.
2009 23YO: I tried to improve loving others and everything in the universe more unconditionally.
2009 23YO: I tried improving my desire to serving and being ultraistic more.
2009 23YO: I continued to send people reiki as a way help to serve and help others awaken spiritually.
2009 23YO: I continued to send the earth reiki with the intent of healing global issue around the world.
2009 23YO: I often went on road trips to look at power lines and these often were good times were I learned my spiritual wisdom.
2009 23YO: I went on another road trip to Florida and had a very amazing happy experience where I enjoyed being a live, appreciated the time I got laid, and feeling connected to everything.
2009 23YO: The moment on that Florida road trip was so great I yelled “woohoo” out loud for a half hour straight.
2009 23YO: I started to learn that in order to awaken and be in a loving/god/sufferless perspective you have to let go of ego which I thought meant pride.
2009 23YO: I believe letting go of pride/ego meant letting go of feeling your on top of the world.
2009 23YO: I was kind of afraid to let go of pride/ego but I was willing to do anything in order to awaken.
2009 23YO: I met more friends and my confidence improved some.
2009 23YO: I met this one girl during the spring that I really liked.
2009 23YO: This girl I liked was really cool, pretty, socialized well and I thought she liked me. I was extremely flattered,.
2009 23YO: I really wanted to have sex with this girl and didn’t want anything to mess up the chance because she told me she wanted to a few times.
2009 23YO: I thought if I had sex with her, it would be an amazing experience I would be overjoyed to a level I couldn’t even imagine and didn’t want miss that chance.
2009 23YO: I thought that if I had sex with her I would experience joy more intense then anyone else could experience and I was curious to experience it.
2009 23YO: I started to worry that if I let go of ego/pride it would hinder the potential enjoyment and joy I would get if I had sex with her.
2009 23YO: Meeting this girl I liked made me much more afraid to let go of ego/pride because I didn’t want miss out on the potentially enjoyable experience if we had sex.
2009 23YO: I also thought that if I had sex with this girl, all my insecurity would go away, because I knew she was cool and her wanting me would be proof I have nothing to be insecure about.
2009 23YO: When I hung out with this girl I liked, we seemed to have a lot in common. She was also interested in spiritually awakening like me.
2009 24YO: I decided that I would not let it go ego/pride until I had with this girl and enjoyed the experience first or see if she would reject me first.
2009 24YO: I felt making the decision to not let go of pride until I had sex with her put a stop to my spiritual progress.
2009 24YO: I felt like I was being cursed by the curiosity of this potential enjoyable experience.
2009 24YO: Me and that girl I liked eventually had sex.
2009 24YO: I was very joyed and the experience was great but I wasn’t satisfied. I felt like it could have been better.
2009 24YO: So I waited to have sex with her again because I knew she would but I had to wait for the right time.
2009 24YO: I ended up waiting all the way to the right of this year before having sex again putting my letting go of pride on hold.
2010 25YO: I didn’t make much real progress in awakening this year because I didn’t let go of pride still.
2010 25YO: I was lead on by this girl that I liked and thought I would have sex again and have that epiphany moment but never did.
2010 25YO: We had sex a couple of more times but each time I felt like it could have been better.
2010 25YO: This whole year I waited for that one amazing sex epiphany experience but it never happened, and I ended up never letting go of pride.
2010 25YO: I felt like letting go of ego/pride was an important step to awakening but I was constantly afraid to the whole time I was friends with this girl.
2010 25YO: The pressure I put on myself to act smooth to get her to want me was stressful and I was often nervous around her.
2010 25YO: I also didn’t like being nervous around her because it made her have sex with me less and we also didn’t have as much fun hanging out then we potentially could have had.
2010 25YO: Being nervous around her also put her in the position of power to push me around and ask me to do things like favors which I didn’t like and felt wouldn’t happen if I wasn’t nervous.
2010 25YO: Trying to not be nervous around that girl made often me even more nervous.
2010 25YO: In spite of the fact that I felt like I didn’t make much progress in spiritually awakening I did learn a lot of wisdom.
2010 25YO: Trying not to be nervous around that girl forced me to learn how to master the god/loving/suffer-less and unattached state to a deeper level.
2010 25YO: The extreme desire of experience joy and the pressure on trying find a way forced me to let go of fear.
2010 25YO: I learned that in order to enjoy things to a heightened level you need to also fully accept the possibility of it not happening.
2010 25YO: I learned that if I didn’t let go of fear of not experience an enjoyable moment, I wouldn’t experience it.
2010 25YO: Being friends with this girl made me face situations that I would normally be terrified to confront and do with almost zero fear on some occasions.
2010 25YO: I took a course called Elfpath www.elfpath.com where I learned how to confront my fears and let them go.
2010 25YO: I learned in Elfpath that negative/fear based feelings are actually energetic blocks that block your energy field and you can remove them.
2010 25YO: I also learned that other people’s negative energy can block you and you can prevent that by protecting yourself by not engaging in it.
2010 25YO: Breathing and visualizing yourself channeling that blockage out of your body into the earth helps get rid of energetic blocks.
2010 25YO: I learned bringing in fresh pure god source light through your 2nd chakra and filling your whole body up with it also helps release blocks too.
2010 25YO: I learned that you can remove negative/fear thought by replacing them with loving, fearless, peaceful, “im in control” kind of thoughts.

2011 18YO: This year I continued to have trouble letting go of my ego. However I made a lot of progress in a lot of areas in terms of awakening.
2011 18YO: The girl that I liked ended up finding a boyfriend and getting engaged with her.
2011 18YO: I got really jealous that the girl I liked got into a relationship with another guy. I was especially upset that he didn’t seem that cool.
2011 18YO: To avoid the jealousy, I tried to break them up. I wrote an anonymous letter to him saying the girl was a hoe.
2011 18YO: That girl and him almost broke up as a result of that letter but eventually stayed together.
2011 18YO: The girl I liked ended up finding out what I did end and permanently ended our friendship.
2011 18YO: I immediately regretted trying to break them up and felt awful.
2011 18YO: I however felt free to not be friends with that girl but I was also upset.
2011 18YO: I was upset that I put a hold on letting go of pride for so long and I probably would have been in more of a god/loving/acceptance state if I did now.
2011 18YO: Even though I felt bad about writing that letter about her, it didn’t take long for me to realize that she wasn’t a true friend either and that upset me.
2011 18YO: I soon realized that girl I like took advantage of me and was using me as a friend because she didn’t have a car and I did. This upset me.
2011 18YO: I also realized that girl wasn’t nice to me either. She talked down to me a lot, pushed me around, and treated other people nicer.
2011 18YO: There was a lot of resentment that I had about this girl that I needed to let go of and it was a challenge to do so.
2011 18YO: I learned more on how to forgive people.
2011 18YO: To forgive: you basically know that in truth all people innocent.
2011 18YO: To forgive: I also learned that people know not what they do.
2011 18YO: To forgive: I learned that everyone is like little kids until they realize what the truth is, that fear and suffering is an illusion.
2011 18YO: I learned that understanding how to forgive takes practice. It’s like breaking an old habit and forming a new one.
2011 18YO: I also practiced not letting pain bother me and allow it to make me suffer.
2011 18YO: I did more exercises to help master letting go of suffering.
2011 18YO: I did uncomfortable things to challenge me to remain in a god/loving/peaceful/acceptance perspective.
2011 18YO: I was able to succeed on not feeling uncomfortable/suffer when doing uncomfortable things.
2011 18YO: I stood still doing a pose for 45 mins straight on a hot day and didn’t let it bother me at an event I volunteered at the Charleston Art Museum.
2011 18YO: The pose was extremely uncomfortable but I was able to successfully not let it bother me.
https://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos- ... 8768_n.jpg
2011 18YO: I learned a meditation where I send light to the planet for healing purposes.
2011 18YO: Sending light to planet meditation: visual light coming from the source of god, have it come through you and visualize it filling the planet- include everyone.
2011 18YO: Sending light to planet meditation: I visualize and imagine the light healing the planet.
2011 18YO: I went on road trips while doing the light healing meditation. I did it while driving and listening to music. It felt extremely powerful and enjoyable.
2011 18YO: I learned when serving and helping others, it’s supposed to be enjoyable.
2011 18YO: The main motive in serving/helping others is the joy in doing it and knowing it helps you too in many ways including spiritually awakening.
2011 18YO: I went on many road trips to have spiritual experiences and learn more spiritual wisdom.
2011 18YO: I found going on road trips was a great way to help me awaken and be in a loving/god/acceptance perspective.
2011 18YO: I learned visualizing and believing things happening actually will make them happen. I call it creating.
2011 18YO: I learned creating is the same thing as karma and the law of attraction.
2011 23YO: I learned to enjoy the now moment and the enjoyment of taking in each moment like it’s the last minute in life.
2011 23YO: I learned that taking in the now moment to an intense amount helps you open up in many ways in terms of awakening.
2011 23YO: I started going on short road trips to practice enjoying taking in the now moment more. They were intense!
2011 18YO: I took a daylong 600 mile road trip to Florida and Back sending light to the planet all in one session. I didn’t get tired and it was amazing.
2011 18YO: I learned being tired, and fatigued is an illusion when you do it with the right intent and perspective.

2011 18YO: I was unhappy sometimes because I didn’t have a girlfriend and wanted one.
2011 18YO: I wanted to have a girlfriend because I wanted to have awesome experiences of joy and feel better about myself.
2011 18YO: I eventually realized I can achieve the same state as having a girlfriend by loving myself more.
2011 18YO: I started trying to love myself.
2011 18YO: I spent 2 months of intense focus on trying to love myself completely.
2011 18YO: Understanding the law of attraction and that I’m connected helped me love myself more.
2011 18YO: After about 2 months I started loving myself to the point that I didn’t’ feel like I needed a girlfriend anymore.
2011 18YO: I now loved myself for the first time completely.
2011 18YO: I went on road trips and have positive joyful experiences that would have been as great as having a girlfriend.
2011 18YO: I learned in truth each individual is made up of all energies and things in the universe that that person (or soul) likes and finds beautiful.
2011 18YO: Got high on weed once on a road trip and enjoyed the now moment to such an intense amount I got out of the car, ran out into a field, and was so ecstatic, I thought I was going to die.
2011 18YO: I learned that when you connect to things, you may not always see it but you’ll know you are and you’ll still enjoy it.
2011 18YO: I however found it more and more difficult to let go of ego/pride.
2011 18YO: It was getting harder to let go of pride because I enjoyed loving myself and feeling lucky to feel beautiful and I also wanted to girlfriend.
2011 18YO: I still had trouble figuring out what I should do as a field of work.
2011 18YO: I continued to feel discouraged about being successful due to my learning disability.
2011 18YO: Even though I loved myself more I still struggled with trying to feel confident when going out and socializing because I knew I was different.
2011 18YO: I tried to go out to clubs, concerts, and other events to find a girlfriend. Trying to counter my fear of failing made it tough though.
2011 18YO: I tried to improve my chances of finding a girlfriend by going out and improving my social skills and overcoming fear of talking to people.
2011 18YO: On night I decided to talk to some girls at the club. The first girl I walked up to I instantly became friends with and got me interested in filmmaking.
2011 18YO: The girl I met worked on a film set for a movie thought it was very interesting and invited me to help them out.
2011 18YO: I decided to major in filmmaking.
2011 18YO: I started sending reiki to my brain to help improve on my learning disability struggles. I felt some effect sometimes.
2011 18YO: I was still afraid to let go of ego/pride because I thought I might meet other girls and possibly get into a relationship.
2011 18YO: I felt like since I became aware of being afraid to let go of ego/pride I became more of a jealous person.
2011 18YO: I knew that being jealous of someone is not loving a part of God and wasn’t helping me spiritually grow.
2011 18YO: I was so afraid to let go of pride that I lie to myself and say I was supposed to have an ego and feel prideful. I would try to find evidence to convince myself of the lie.
2011 18YO: I would often become really stressed and scared when thoughts challenged the ego/pride belief and I would immediately try to debunk those thoughts that challenged it.
2011 18YO: My dad made my older sister move from Michigan to South Carolina. She was not happy about it.
2011 18YO: My older sister was kind of depressed that she moved and I tried to comfort her and be someone to lean on.
2012 18YO: This year was a really amazing year in terms of growth!
2012 18YO: I made a lot of progress in spiritually growing.
2012 18YO: I improved even more on loving myself more and more.
2012 18YO: I felt more attractive and that made me became even more beautiful and radient.
2012 18YO: I notice girls were checking me out more and being more attracted to me.
2012 18YO: I started hanging out with this one girl I knew from Unity Church more.
2012 18YO: I kissed her at a beach I had a very awesome moment in the past one time.
2012 18YO: We became boyfriend and girlfriend!
2012 18YO: I was extremely happy to have a girlfriend and went on many drives and road trips to really appreciate the joy.
2012 18YO: I moved out of my dad and step mom’s house and lived on my own for the first time.
2012 18YO: I moved in with my girlfriend.
2012 18YO: I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to continue being in a relationship with my gf but after time my love grew more.
2012 18YO: I was amazed how much my girlfriend understood me on levels that most other people wouldn’t and I felt blessed.
2012 18YO: Had very many amazing joy moments on road trips appreciating the relationship and how lucky I am to being with her.
2012 18YO: One road trip I had, when I appreciating my relationship, enjoyed the now moment, and loving myself, I cried due to such intense joy.
2012 18YO: I did a lot of sessions of sending light to the planet this year.
2012 18YO: I spend almost a total of 100 hours visualizing light healing the planet and consciousness on the planet.
2012 18YO: Onetime I sent light to the planet while listening to the music and song I listened to started changing sound into what sounded like thunder!
2012 18YO: I also worked on mastering letting go of suffering more.
2012 18YO: I put myself in a lot of uncomfortable situations as a way to let go of the belief of suffering.
2012 18YO: I went on a hour long bike ride in twenty degree weather with a t-shirt and I managed to not allow the coldness to even bother me by using the god/loving/suffer-less perspective.
2012 18YO: This year around may, I decided to let go of my ego once and for all.
2012 18YO: I decided to go on a road trip to Florida to make it a sacred moment to let go of my ego/pride perspectives.
2012 18YO: Went on a road trip to Florida as a sacred place to finally let go of pride/ego, I felt amazing. I almost cried.
2012 18YO: I got my associates degree in Digital Media.
2012 18YO: I couldn’t find any jobs with my Digital Media degree and continued focusing on Film major and find other work.
2012 27YO: I decided to be myself and not what other people think of me as long as I’m being myself.
2012 27YO: I set a goal and sent reiki to my brain for 20 mins a day to try to overcome my learning disability so I can have a better chance of making a better living.
2013 27YO: I still didn’t feel entirely confident about what I should do as a field but I knew I was on the right track with film.
2013 27YO: Made a goal to start doing meditations on trying to figure out what would be the best field to get into.
2013 27YO: I had some amazing experiences simply appreciating myself and loving myself to a really intense level.
2013 27YO: I learned to appreciate my uniqueness.
2013 27YO: I wanted to love others more and be more epithetic of others more.
2013 27YO: I wanted to be less selfish, jealous, be more empathetic but the fear of letting go of ego and pride was stopping me.
2013 27YO: I decided to let go of ego/pride once and for all.
2013 27YO: I decided to go on another road trip to Florida to try to let go of ego/pride once and for all.
2013 27YO: I didn’t have any extremely enjoyable moments during the road trip but I successfully let go of my ego/pride once and for all!
2013 27YO: I was proud (not in a prideful way) to let go of my ego/pride because I felt like it took a lot of courage and letting go of fear.
2013 27YO: I noticed that once I let go of pride/ego the joyful experiences I experienced before letting it go I still could.
2013 27YO: I learned the joy I had when having sex, loving myself, and having a girlfriend was not actually from ego/pride/feeling on top but actually from love/god/acceptance perspective.
2013 27YO: I realized extremely joyful feelings come from a feeling of love, not pride/ego even though you can get tricked into thinking it is.
2013 27YO: I realized it’s hard for people to let go of pride/ego because there’s the faulty belief that they will be less happy, but the opposite’s true.
2013 27YO: I started to unconditionally love others more.
2013 27YO: I went on a road trip and had a very joyous moment appreciating my dad, sister, the history of my life and appreciate with great love in how that and other lives are unique in their own way.
2013 27YO: I felt more compelled to serve and help other awaken.
2013 27YO: I learned why I have a disability. I choose to come to earth with this condition to inspire and help others with my unique quality to help them spiritually awaken.
2013 27YO: I decided to stop sending reiki to my brain on a daily basis to removed my learning disability.
2013 27YO: I decided to completely be myself no matter what people think.
2013 27YO: I decided let go of all fears of people judging me or not liking me for who I am.
2013 27YO: I decided to write my life right here on Facebook and Twitter to share my life with everyone so they can be inspired.

amazing summary

i cant remember an awful lot of mine, not chronologically like that anyway

good luck with the rest of it

Welcome, infilove!

Thanks for the brief outline

Welcome to Wrong Planet!