I'm confused. Do I have Asperger , Schizophrenia, or something else?
I actually grew as a normal child but I have various unusual behavior like when I’m bored I’ll walk around & while I do it, I often think some random things including imagination that I’m a rock star or a comic main character. When I can’t do it like when I have to sit like in class or in a meeting, I like to shake my feet except there’s something interesting like computer with games or internet connection or interesting topic in class or meeting, I like science and technology & I aim to be engineer or computer expert (programmer, web developer, etc).
I also find difficult in social interaction. According to my mom, I was talkative when I was toddler but when I got older, I became a calm person, and I often get nervous when I’m in a conversation or speaking in front of people. I also often got nervous when entering new environment or society which makes me look clumsy.
Because of my weird behavior, I was often bullied in school and because I couldn't stand it, I usually fought the bullies. I forgave some of my peers who bullied me but I can’t forgive the rest.
The worst one, when I was 11th grader, because I couldn't stand the bullying, I got depression which made me found difficult in study & later I often skipped school, my mom brought me to psychiatrist and when the psychiatrist asked that did I hear a strange voice in my mind, I answered yes despite I’m not sure that did I really hear strange voice in my mind. Later I got to consume tranquilizer & I moved to another class until I graduated.
Now I no longer consume tranquilizer again. I currently study in a university but I feel that I take wrong major, I planned to take the entrance exam again and study from beginning again..