I guess i have aspergers?

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I honestly don't know what I have. I've researched Aspergers for a long time and have come to the conclusion that i have most of the symptoms. If it's not Aspergers then i'm confident i have some sort of undiscovered mental illness. I'm not diagnosed with anything other than ADD/ADHD, but when i was in jr high i was put on anti psychotic meds to deal with violent outbursts i was having in school, mainly due to bullying and me not wanting to interact with other students. I have 0 social skills, i mean 0! none. I tend to come off as "cold" or "unkind" to people i've never met, i often walk around with a scowl on my face ONLY because i feel like everyone's analyzing me, they're all watching me it seems like so i put a tough face on to deter people from approaching me (hopefully). Autism doesn't run in my family, but my cousin has a much more severe form of autism, he's mentally unable to hold down a job and lives in a tent behind his dads auto repair shop. I have facial ticks i was told i got as a side effect from an accidental Ritalin overdose when i was kid, i blink, grind my teeth, and have occasional muscle spasms in my chin and cheeks, nothing bad though. I'm often very paranoid, i think people are talking about me, plotting against me, or in some cases trying to kill me. I'm not a skitzo, i just have vivid paranoia some times, i know its all in my head and i can usually get over it. I'm very emotional on the inside but on the outside i'm a stone. As a child i had these episodes where i would get mad to a certain point (mostly bullying caused it) and i would mentally black out, not like with alcohol where you don't remember, but i couldn't control my actions, no matter what, it was out of my hands. I threw a text book through a window, tossed chairs, and got into fights. I even threw a chair at a student in the principals office, i got arrested but never went to jail, i sat in the resource room (the on campus police officers office) in handcuffs and then had to meet with my probation officer but dodged juvenile hall. luckily this was all under the age of 18 and i have no criminal record as an adult, i've learned to deal with my feelings better.

So thats me, i'm a super nice guy! i'm interested in almost everything in existence so i'm sure i'll something in common with everyone here

Welcome to WP!
The lines between things are so fuzzy that it's hard for anyone to decide where they are.
Asperger's share a lot in common with other things - in the past aspies were often misdiagnosed with "childhood schizophrenia". There is a genetic link between Asperger's and schizophrenia (and bipolar, and depression) and the "negative symptoms of schizophrenia" are often shared between the diagnoses:

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Thanks for the welcome guys! it's really hard to admit, and its hard to accept that i might have a touch of schizophrenia but the more i look at myself, i'm not surprised i often find that meditation (a practice i kept doing after i studied Buddhism for school) and marijuana smoking help to keep my mind calm and let me regain control of my feelings. it's unorthodox but i do whats best for myself, drinking was surely not it