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Hey people i got a autism diagnose when i was 5 years old beacuse i could not talk and mom wanted me to start talking so i started to go to a spesial daycare ore school i dont realy know what it was i was like 5 and didnt realy notice ore ask and at 6 i started to talk a bit i also was in coma when i was 6 years old beacuse i had and infection in my body and i didnt get help in time but then i was operated and it went good i woke up in 2 weaks realy tired but when i was 7 i was talking perfect and mom desided to move to Sweden

In Sweden mom left the diagnoses home in my home country so i started to go to a normal school mom realy wanted me to be like all other and she could not realy accept my diagbnose so she sent me to a normal school i started in 3 grade went on to 4 grade then it went to hel so i had to rego 4 grade then i managed to make to 5 grade but then it went so bad that i had to go to 4 grade again and then i managed to stay till 9 grade with awful results somehow

And then i started i thing in english it is called College but here is is called in sweden like 1 ring and secon and in third my studies got stoped beacuse i went to prison for seting stuff on fire beacuse i was depressed when i was 15 and i started to set houses and cars on fire but now i got my diagnose Autism again and i am in a swedish hospital for psyhical sick prisoners .

If you wonder something just ask also if there is gramer wrongs ore other stuff well i was never good in school so what did you expect and i have low brain function so i realy try my best computers are my fasvorte thing so thats keps me occupied.

Welcome!

So prisoners in Sweden get internet access? I might have to move.

well i have mobile internet ore you know the one with usb internet.
But i do have my gaming rig and i can play computer games 24/7

Hello, and welcome!

Your English is far better than my Swedish, so I can't really fault any grammar mistakes.

Are you in a mental hospital? (A hospital where you are not free to come and go as you please.)

Are they helping you learn skills to live independently, or are you just locked-up and left to surf the web & play video games?

Well it is more off a lerning like a school here they learn me to live independenly and it is a mental hospital so i cant come and go as i want

you have it pretty good over there.

and still the last days i wish i never came out off come ore survived when i was baby and having health isues beacuse it is so hard being with autism and living in this world there is so many thing i dont understan people thing i am strange and well school never worked so what is good in this life?

I am sorry if what I said came off as insensitive to your pains, I was speaking merely as an American who is a bit in awe of the relatively generous safety net your civilized country affords its citizens.

I know what you meant i was just sad i watched a lot off Autism documentarys and in all documentarys the kids got theirs autism in 6 to 5 years old just like me but theire parents supported them and loved them my mom never supported my autism and i never had that love they had all my lafi have been a strugle i have been junping betven difrent familys beacuse i could not make it out with my own mom so i had to live with other familys and they didnt understand me and could not be with me no 1 have ever realy loved me i never had friends and i never realy had a good family to go home to so i am just sad wathing those documentaries seing how those parents stay by their child nomater what i just wish ihad something like that maybe i vouldd not become kriminal if i had love and aa family to go to.

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the fact that there is a lot of pain to go around does not diminish in the least your own pain. our pain is always so personal. our pain is all that we are aware of. my parents didn't know what to make of me either, other than as big and dumb and clumsy. that is how I was raised. i don't know if it were the case that if i were farmed out to several foster families that i would have coped as well as you have. i might've just disappeared somewhere along the line. you are a survivor. you lived to tell your tale. i can't help but believe that things will improve for you, perhaps not as fast as you'd like but they will improve.

well thats the thing man people say it will better and yes i thing that to but it takes time and i am so tired after so many years your just getting tired off the hard life man now i have good so i am happy for that and i will improve but it will take time and i will never have friend i never had and never will beacuse all i meat thing i am strange and dont want to have something to do with me and i dont realy know if i want friends it is so much thing to thing about then it realy worth it ?

it is not helping you when you say "never." I said never also and it became a self-fulfilling prophecy for me. I had to open up to different kinds of people who could be my friends, which turned out to be my fellow aspies that I never got to meet in person until quite recently.

w i watch documentarys about Autism i see what i could have and what i didnt have and it makes me sad that i fought and had a hard time like hell when i could have a good time and a easy life.

fight differently.

you are awesome auntblabby

welcome to the whanau