Hey there,
I'm a 27 year old dude who's struggled with social anxiety for most of my life, and then later on had major problems with depression and addiction. Growing up I occasionally had problems getting motivated to hang out with people, but if I stayed inside too long my parents would force me to play with a friend and everything would be ok. As I got older I started losing interest in people (including myself), and started drinking more and avoiding social interactions. A little over two years ago I found a medication that stopped my alcohol cravings and helped a ton with my anxiety and depression, but as I titrated up (unnecessarily) to an obscenely high dose (it made me feel really good) I started noticing messages from the universe which became more intense and more frequent. After awhile of these messages, God revealed that it was Him who was communicating with me. He had me do some crazy stuff which got me diagnosed with Asperger's (I'm not entirely sure at this point whether it's an accurate diagnosis or not). I was later also diagnosed with schizophrenia, and while I don't believe I'm psychotic, I have most, if not all, of the negative symptoms (low ambition, low desire to socialize, etc.) and delusions (I'm convinced no one wants to hear what I have to say, and everyone on the Earth matters and has their life together except for me.)
So that's my brain in a nutshell. I'm sick of sitting in my apartment by myself watching Netflix, so am trying to find ways to get outside of myself and eventually lead a fulfilling, unselfish life. Thanks for reading.
13 Dec 2013, 6:30 pm
