Hi! I'm Corey and I'm 27 from Santa Clarita, Ca.

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Hi! I'm Corey and I'm 27.
I'll be 28 February.
I live in the Santa Clarita Valley California.
I lead a very shy, un confident, painful and lonely existence.
I've always had trouble fitting in and being an outcast for as long as I can remember.
I used to be painfully shy until January 2012 after I didn't speak up to be friends with a girl that seemed very much like an Aspie herself.
I've been crushed ever since.
Even though she claimed she lived in town, I never saw her again.

The magic we had doesn't happen to me very often and it felt very special.
It's really hard for me to make friends and when people notice me it means alot.
I don't keep friends for long and have bad social skills with narrow interests that bore many people.
I don't even get along with family at times. i go through hell to understand them but, they do nothing for me.
The 3 friends I do have either live out of town or state. I have no friends where I live and can't relate with the people I frequent.
I've never had a real girlfriend and where I live in Southern California many are shallow here which makes me feel as though on a tiny island in a vast bleak ocean or dreary desert.
I was thinking about committing suicide last year until I got help and was diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome.
Even though I understand myself and the world around me better it's still hard sometimes seeing how people getting together is a mystery to me and many of their experiences are very alien to me.
How I deal with my lonely life I escape into Science Fiction, Art, and Video Game Design.
I'm currently making a story that stars a character with my name and likeness suffering from the ups and downs of Asperger Syndrome and he meets a homeless red haired albino named Angela with Asperger Syndrome as well as they gather space/time elements in increasingly intensifying Post-Apocalyptic landscapes.
It's largely based off of dreams I've had through out the years with some revisions and Survivalist tips.
I'm as well into Philosophy, Politics, Astronomy, Art and Sci-Fi.
Though in person you'd never know because, I often stick to just talking about politics and crap and I can often repeat myself.
In time and if I'm not spot lighted to steer the conversation I will talk about broad encompassing topics that happen to occupy my narrow interests.
I've burned out of steam and don't know what else to say and I wouldn't be surprised if anyone cared to get to know me.
It doesn't matter. I can resume leading a life I'm familiar with. I'd probably break down and cry too if I met meaningful people and especially a girlfriend on here so you might not want to be involved.
~Corey

Hi. Sorry to hear about the hardships you've had. Welcome to Wrong Planet.

Greetings Corey and welcome to the Wrong Planet.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Welcome, Corey. A lot of your experiences sound similar to what a lot of people here have also gone through. I also only found out about Aspergers after being hospitalised for suicidal depression. It certainly gives you a new perspective on your own life.

In any case, welcome to WP. I hope you can find people that you can easily relate to.