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I'll be honest, I'm what people would call a "closet Aspie." In real life, I am really good at appearing "normal" to the rest of the world and fit into mainstream society quite well. In fact, no one would ever remotely think that I have Autism/Asperger's. However, this little "act" of mine does become mentally exhausting after a while and for some reason, I have been losing more control over my Autism lately than I usually allow to happen. For instance, I've been getting absorbed in my computer and talking to friends online while leaving my parents to wonder what I am going to do about college next semester (I went from a 3.5 GPA last semester to a 2.1 this semester). I think my grades slipped because I have recently gotten into a relationship with someone and even though we feel very strongly for each other, she keeps telling me that I "don't care" enough and that has led to a lot of problems for us as a couple. I'm not really sure on how to handle all of these real life stresses at one time without going insane.

The reason I rambled on in my above paragraph is to give anyone reading a feel for how my life is at the moment. In short, the relationship with my parents is strained, the relationship with my girlfriend is unsteady (to say the least), and my future in college is uncertain, all while I am trying to regain control over my Autism. It's not an easy task with all of these other things going on. Oh yeah, let's not forget, I'm going to be applying for a job tomorrow since I don't want to miss the opportunity (my Dad knows the manager over there and she could help me get in the door if I apply right away).

Anyway... I want to lead a relatively "normal" life and at this moment in time, I am not completely sure on how to go about that. I guess I came to this forum seeking answers. I figure at least some of the members here have been dealing with or have had to deal with the same annoyances that I am at this point in time, so what better place to seek advice from?

Moving on though... Since this is meant to be an introductory post, I don't want to make it overly lengthy. I'll probably be posting with more specifics regarding the above paragraphs later today, so any help will be greatly appreciated.

I look forward to hanging around this place for a little while, 'til next~

Oh, yes. Time management. Wouldn't it be nice if there was 32 hours in the day instead of just 24?

There was a point in time when I had a boyfriend, commuted to work, was an aspiring musician and still had to sleep. As it turned out I was in burn out city because I just didn't have enough hours to do all those things. Something had to go, and unfortunately, it was my boyfriend.

Big mistake. I'm paying for it even till today. I should've given up the music. Hell, I turned out to be a failure at it anyway.

Did you having a girlfriend lead to the decline in your grades? That's no good. In the scheme of things, you went to school for an education. Meeting someone is incidental - nice but not necessary. Would you say that your girlfriend is holding you back?

I think it is the balancing act that is hard for me to keep up on a regular basis. I don't think my grades would have gone down if her and I didn't fight so much over the same thing over and over and over again. She just doesn't seem to understand and no matter how many different ways I try explaining to her that I DO care about her but am just not very good with emotions, it doesn't appear to make any difference whatsoever. I'd hate to look at it that she is holding me back... I just wish she would stop attacking my weaknesses and try to be more understanding.