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Ill put it simply on this as i put it in more detail on my blog. First off I have Aspergers, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Bipolar, ADHD, Crippling Anxiety, Paranoia, and Severe Depression. Ive been different my entire life. I was bullied and tortured in school, soo badly that I got my PTSD from it. Ive tried to talk to my mom and dad about how I feel inside off and on my whole life only to be called a liar or accused of exagerating and then told to go away. My mother has for my entire life loved going around to places and saying horrible awful things about me even to my grandparents and other family members makeing them dislike me and also she has always used my deepest fears against me any time we have gotten into an arguement. I was married for 3 years during which my ex wife emotionally and mentally tortured and abused me to such an extent that words cannot even describe it. Ive been trying to cope with, understand and deal with all of my mental problems all by myself and completely alone my entire life. 2 months ago I was diagnosed with Aspergers and it must have made them start to think and realize that the things I did and way I always had acted wasnt my fault and around two weeks ago they came to my room and said they want to start trying to understand me and to be there for me to come and talk to whenever I need to. Soo far they have been really trying hard and I dont think anyone ever knew this but having my family be a family and care about and love me and include me in family things and be there for me has always been the only thing I've ever wanted in this life and have prayed for since I was little and tho I am loving it I am also extremely afraid because ive started to have hope and if they suddenly ever stop doing this for me and go back to how it was it would utterly destroy me in such a complete manner that I would never recover. I guess im saying that im gambling literally everything on this chance of having my ultimate wish come true and am curious if everyone thinks I am making the correct decision?

Hi and welcome!

I'm so glad your family is being more understanding since your diagnosis. I experienced the same thing with my parents – there was a time when they thought I was screwing up and failing in life on purpose, to punish them or something. But since they learned that I have serious mental conditions, they've been very patient and understanding. (I'm also bipolar and have PTSD from being abused).

I'm sorry you've been through so much pain in your life too, but I'm glad things are starting to get better now, and I hope it continues!

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It sounds like your 'loved ones' have put you through some kind of special hell. I'm sorry to hear that they belittle you like that; there's no excuse for such behaviour.

I myself have issues with my own family. While none of them are diagnosed with any conditions, I suspect both my mother and sister have Narsasistic Personality Disorder, and I think my sister may also have Reactive Associative Disorder.

I found these terms when trying to learn whether there were others out there who had experienced their own families bullying them all their lives. I don't want to mislabel your family, but I suggest looking in to it, just to be on he safe side; perhaps it will explain everything. The reason I say this, is because if they are anything like my family, nothing you say to them will make them treat you right.

I hope I'm wrong about your family. Either way, hang in there. There are good people out there; it's just sometimes hard to believe that when you're being bullied, especially by those who should be supporting you.

Hart.

I too have had my struggles with my family, and friends but since getting a diagnosis they have been a lot more supportive if not understanding. At least they are trying to understand.

It is always hard to trust another when we have issues like PTSD. I have experienced people offer kindness with one hand, and take it back with the other, much like the chair-pulling gag.
I never feel like I can count on anyone to be there when I need it because I have been burnt so many times before. However, despite my lack of trust, the actual evidence tells me there will always be some people there for me who care and are willing to try for me, no matter how many bridges I burn down, these people are always there. I am learning that some people are worth trusting.

The fun thing regarding rebuilding trust with my family: noticing their little traits and quirks. They are convinced they are normal. I think otherwise but mainly keep these opinions to myself.

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