Hello, new here, confirmed being AS yesterday

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hello I'm 24 (and a girl) and studying math in the university. Erika is not my real name, but I prefer being anonymous for a while....

I was reading an article on Asperger in women 2 months ago for amusement (someone posted it on facebook). After reading a few traits I was like "it's kind of like me". But I repressed it, until yesterday.

I started new sessions with the therapist I was going to a few years in my young adulthood, in order to overcome test anxiety this days. After a few times, when I got comfortable with her again, I asked her if I have Asperger (It was so hard to say it out loud...) and she nodded and said I do have. And then we talked about it.

I feel so overwhelmed about it. About being right guessing it. About knowing that I'm different, and not just feeling unique (as they say, in a good way...). It's just weird.... and new.

So.... about me- really like geek communities or around people who love science. There I am feeling normal and even being popular around some groups, or at least being loved. And I love these people. In the past it was harder - especially in junior high school or some work places.

I love math, and popular science. And movies, mostly kinda weird ones or Indy. And the ones were made in the 80's, but also the new ones. And art, and all kinds of music (Mainly I don't get along with metal and jazz. more or less can listen to grunge and indie, like progressive rock, musicals and classical music).

Geek-wise I watched Buffy and Angel, doctor who, read Harry potter, Asimov, Ender's game- all the series and the shadows series, and probably more popular geek fandoms. But I am not that much into those (though I kinda like Orson Scott Card books). My real obsession now, which kind of started fade away is "the phantom of the opera" (Maybe it's because of feeling wearing a mask, and not always be who you are, and now my interpretation is about masking aspie traits....)

I have misophonia, which is not really like being hypersensitive, it is more like really hating some noises- getting snap or having panic attack by hearing them. Mostly noises people make when they eat. I heard that it's partly related to Asperger (or also autism? I don't know) I will be glad hearing if any of you got it too, and maybe it's true that there is connection.

I hope I will like it here. I haven't talked to anyone about my diagnosis, though I guess some of them already knows. So you are pretty much the first people I coming out in front of them

Nice to meet you, Erika. Feel free to remain under a pseudonym if you'd like – most people do.

What you've told us should resonate with many people here (although we each have different traits).

I really hope you can find people here with whom you can relate.

Welcome