Hi,
I've been absent for over a year (lost my internet connection), but I may be back soon.
A lot has changed since then, so perhaps a fresh introduction would be best.
I'm in my mid-20s and was diagnosed a few years ago. I became aware of people's sour opinion of me a lot earlier, however. I've been trying to improve as a person, to come to terms with not only my condition but my past. Lately, I've made great strides in overcoming my fear of people and social situations. I've spent the last decade at war with myself, but I think I recently surrendered and made a fragile cease fire.
I used to be severely depressed and suicidal, but I've sworn off suicidal thoughts and have my depression under control (no, drugs did not help!). My financial situation has become precarious, however, and I'm trying to chase down a job. I'll likely have to move soon, which is a pity because I can escape society more easily in this small mountain town. It will be nice to have access to a decent library however. It will help balance out the lack of rock climbing and mtbiking opportunities.
Well, anyway, I've been working on not being a self-absorbed as*hole for along time. I think now I should work on gaining some self-respect.