48 yr male. Live in Illinois, from Western NC.
Father was from Greece.
Been different and alien my entire life, but only recently getting acquainted with the label of Aspergers.
I'm here because it seems most people around me think that I'm crazy, and I think they are crazy. There has always been a very big difference in the perception of reality, and I've recently reduced my willingness to accept invalidation and bend over backwards to blend in.
A decent analogy is that to me it seems that most people go around living in an imaginary game of Monopoly. Dealing with them is much more difficult than just playing the normal game of Monopoly because the rule-book they are using is constantly changing, and subject to large differences in interpretation.
I am functional enough to produce an imaginary simulation in order to blend in to an extent, but the simulation is not primary, and thus the extreme feeling of alienation and invalidation.
The atmosphere of deceit, manipulation, psychopathy, hierarchies, and identity driven thinking is both hostile and offensive to me. For the majority of my life I have wanted to escape this environment.
I have a great many interests, starting with physics.
I love to learn.
I live with 3 cats.
21 Jun 2014, 9:48 pm
