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Hello everyone. It's not easy to start on this forum, first, because I'm not used to discussion forum, and secondly, because I don't know if I'm at the right place. I'm not sure I have Asperger Syndrome. I have to apolize for my bad writting since English is not my first language and I lost a lot of it after not practicing it often in the last years. My grammatical is poor and I lack vocabulary to vary my sentences. Ok I start...


Last year, I was diagnosed for ADHD. I always suspected I had that problem, and after reading and reading about it I decided to pass a test. I will have to past another one, however, because I slept only two hours the night before I did the first one, so it probably influenced the results. I also forgot to tell the doctor a lot of characteristics of my childhood that I forgot but came in my head recently. But since the waiting list is very long in the public sector and since I'm too broke to pay for a private consultation now, I have to wait a lot to pass a new test. Until the moment arrive I decided to take as much information that I could to have more baggage of knowledge about myself when I meet a doctor. A year after my diagnostic was done, I started to hear about Asperger Syndrome and I was shock to recognize a lot of symptoms I had as a kid and still now. I'm more confused than ever, now.


What I find strange is when I push the rewind button in my brain and I remember my chilhood, I tent to remark more traits of AS. These traits are related to my tendacy of being more stucked on a specific interest and go depply into it, not being able to concentrate on anything else. For exemple If the teacher would talk about any subject, I would always make links between some elements of what he, or she said, and my specific interest. That interest could change every three years and could be weird passions. I always oriented discussions with others toward my specific passion even if the discussion planned had nothing to do with it and even if the other person had visibly any interest in it, well visibly for other people around, not me. I couldn't read it if there was not mutual interest in the subject. So from what I read, this is typically AS related. Since my early 20's however, and more since my mid-20's I started being totally the opposite in some ways. My interests and my curiosity became larger, and now I always switch to one subject to another but I'm never able to go deeply in it and dedicated myself concretly to something. I always have a thousand of ideas in my head but I accomplish nothing since I feel mentally invaded by my thoughts. this look more like ADD or ADHD. One thing for sure, since I'm born until now, I always had characteristics that can apply to both disorders. I can't concentrated for a long period at school, or when I read a book. Same thing for when I write, like it is the case right now. I can't sit on a chair without moving. I always had problems with my relationships, especialy with girls, only had one girlfriend in my life, and it's not because I didn't want a stable Relationship, far from it. I feel like a loner in this world. The paradox is I like the feeling of having a lot of people around me, like the big city buzz, I find it stimulating. I'm very bad to manage my finances, even when I don't have responsabilities, while I'm a bit better now but it's cyclical. I have a extreme intolerence to boreness. Everything that does NOT make me euphoric make me bored or tired to hell. When I'm in my bubble, which is always the case almost, I can be agressive and perturbated if someone want to break it. Last night I listened to a song from 10 pm to 4 am, non stop, because that song made me euphoric and I didn'T want to break that mood. A lot of past memories and futur fictives scenarios came to my mind from that song. I can do the same with a movie scene that stimulate me. I heard AS is often mistaken for ADHD and vice-versa. I wondered if it is possible to have both, and if it is, how could it be since a lot of respectives attributs of both symptoms are totally the opposite?


To talk a bit more about me, I'm a 32 years, still living with my parents, I went often on my own appartments but it never lasted long. I'm really scared about doing little changes that can disturbed my feeling if the new environment is not fit for me. What is paradoxal is I'm not scared to travel to other cities, countries or even continents, alone, without plans. I did it often and was very comfortable. Like leaving my parents house for a block in a new neightboorhood make me scare, but leaving for a new city, or even country....well, I feel ok. Sometimes i feel like a child that kept his magical innocent side and feel mad at everyone around me that I find cynical and boring. I can be abnormally agressive in situation I find unfair. Plus, at 32, I don't have any post-secondary education so I'm stock in minimum wage job. I plan on doing something with my life, but before I fail my third attempt to go back to school, I need to know my specific condition so i can have the right kind of help. Thank you for taking the time to read me

Hi there,

Welcome to the Forum.

Are you in Europe? It might not be so culturally unusual for you to be living with your parents, as if might be in the US. I like to travel as well, and I have no fear--my wife does, though!

Anyway. Enjoy yourself. Have fun.

Hi kraftiekortie. No, I'm from Québec city, Québec, Canada, three hours from Montreal. But I know what you mean, my father is Greek and it's more frequent there.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

I've been to Quebec City. I took a tour of the Plains of Abraham. Are you near the Old City?

There are days I feel a child-like frustration with the world. Only recently have I felt like I've grown up. A little. Like, eight months at least =p

Welcome to the WP!

Welcome. I hope you enjoy yourself here. Everything is right in WrongPlanet.