Hello. I'm Ygor, I'm a savage.

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Hello people from all over the world.

I'm Ygor and I just got here. I was going for a crazy picture in the 'show your pic' topic, but I need to wait 5 days, so I will start here with a long text...

First off, I want to state that I'm grateful for the internet, and the fact I just found this place . I hope this will be a plus for everyone.

I have been lurking around for quite a time, not only here, but in a bunch of forums. I gotta say I haven't been lucky so far finding my safe-zone on the internet.. Since ever I'm used to only read forum information and never participate on it, but in the last couple months I'm trying to make a move. This place relates to me, let's see how this will play out.

About myself..
I'm in my 20's and I'm a very complex person, much alike with the paradox idea.
Since from early childhood I'm a introvert person, filled with hate. I don't know much about why, at this point of my life I have agreed that's just a flow thing. Just like it happens with love going through people, it may happen as well with hate. I had relatively good parenting, but I never told them anything about anything. In my teen's they were through a heavy fight that took some years until they finally divorced, being that said I always tried to solve my s**t alone and never share. I don't blame my parents from any of my issues.

After some quite time (5 years now and going) studying...
Being truly honest, all of this relates well with me:

- Sociopath / I can comprehend the pain from others, but never feel it. This makes me feel bad sometimes.
- Multiple personality disorder / I have 3 characters so far. They help me a lot with different perspective for the information I get and sometimes when I'm in good balance I can see out of the box.
- Schizophrenia / In the beginning was a hell, but after learning how to use in my favor, was definitely my GOD, the reason for me be who I'm and keep on the track and focused. Have everything to thank for that, my truly savior.
- Nihilist / As I read in the signature of one of the persons in this forum, It isn't like I hate everyone, I just didn't found enough beauty on it to change my mind.
- Atheist / I don't believe in god, but I keep a mind open for everything.
- 'Vampire' / HATE the light and daytime, I literally can't look to the sky unless is sunrise/set. Feeling the night is invigorating for me and the moon is my witness.
- Evolutionary extremist / Since ever I think we should go forward, but looks like this is not the practical case in our human planet.
- Perfectionist / It's compulsive, it's tiring but I feel proud for most things I let this on.

...Now Socially speaking I would be:

- Boring / I don't keep in track of the popular BS from the tv and pop world so this makes me boring for most in a conversation. I like to discuss things that are a plus, not the life of others.
- Narcissistic / Can't help it. I try to smooth it out as much as I can, but it's craved deep in my bones.
- Philosophical / Philosophy is a way of life I must say. Helped me understand a lot in this world, and probably what keeps me from being a serial killer.
- Hater / Well, hate it's in my blood, makes my heart pump, in a way I like it. It's who I'm.

...My main talents:
- Arts / Everything involving lines and colors. Art was my early escape on school and later my way of making some cash.
- Crafting / Not having social life gives you a lot of time which I use to create (I love to create) almost anything from steel to wood. Also is very therapeutical.
- Technology / If it is digital, I can learn it. I don't like that much tough, but It's not hard for me to understand systems.
- Imagination / I have a complete Autodesk suite in my mind that can create, design and simulate almost everything that I see. This also have been a plus in my lucid dreams where I put most of it in practice, this can sound crazy but have being working great for me.

and what keeps me alive:
- Music / The only thing besides adrenaline rush that makes me feel something.
- The thin line between love and hate / Life and it's experiencing can be surprising.


In my mind, it kinda works like multiple personalities siting on chairs in these lobby discussing what should be done, and reminding it, and as I refine it, It gets more useful with the memory, the perception and the whole data information I'm accumulating over the years. Still I have to say I'm in going slow though. I smoke pot a lot and this limits my advance, I'm very aware of that, but it kinda leaves space for me to go easy and not overload my mind. Once I get my body balanced I can focus on leaving my whole potential go trough.

Concluding... Why savage ? This will look funny...
I copy paste animals. I literally developed a lot of my body movements copying animals, mostly felines. I love felines. No fur fetish , I just feel they are much more in depth with their bodies and abilities and this amazes me . I'm very silent, and very aware of whats happening around me and this have being prove a huge plus when comes to training martial arts. I also love heights, I go often to the most top of the roof from my house which is about 36ft tall. and I just sit there in lotus position feeling the wind and the silent of the night. This is so great.

Much being said. I think we are way more than we think we are, somehow there is always something to make you believe that you less than you are, this should not affect us. It's sad the potential our human bodies are limited, and all mostly for ignorance. This is me, crazy as it my sound, nowadays I think my issues are the best of me. I'm by nature a bad person, but I'm willed to help everyone in their journey...

Any of you guys relate to something above ?

Hi Ygor.

Hello friend, how are you ?

Hello, you look like an interesting and complex person.

Like said before you do seem like an interesting and complex person. Welcome to Wrong Planet

Hello SilverProteus! How are you ?



Hello n8dogg! How are you ?

Thanks for the conviviality! I do believe we are all interesting with something good to give. The complexity is on the path to reach it from each other. I'm looking forward on share the complexity with everyone.

Hello and welcome. I trust you have a well equipped psychiatrist that has both dx'ed and is helping you with the things you posted.

Ygor is a cool name. what's the origin?

Welcome

Not a great one, but he is honest at trying it's best. I make the job easier nowadays..


I find nice too, I think its come from Eastern Europe, but that wasn't the motive, my parents just liked though.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!