wow. I'm practically having a meltdown just from registering. My first three usernames were already in use. And I couldn't get the captchas right. Then I read a warning about privacy and making my email address visible. I almost said to heck with it--which is typical; I have VERY LITTLE fortitude. As soon as something starts making me feel anxious, I usually quit. It's impossible to build any type of life with this habit,and being in my late 40's, I still haven't. My first username was hopeless, which I become more and more with each passing day. I'm never married, no kids, and sabotaged my only career less than four years into it. I don't think I"m asking for advice. I wouldn't know how to take it. Plus, I feel I've tried everything. I can't really find help for my diagnosed Asperger's. I was only diagnosed a year ago. That brought some relief with the realization, "this explains EVERYTHING." And it did; and it does. But getting help has been more of a problem than I could have realized. It seems like NOTHING goes my way. I can't even get into all the ways that I've received no to any attempt to make any aspect of my life better. If it weren't for my two dogs and my parents--literally the only four souls on this planet who would care if I died--well, then I would probably die. I just wanted to get these things off my chest to some people who might have an inkling of what I feel like.
I can't even find the place where I denote whether I want my email to be invisible or visible. I actually hate technology. Maybe somebody could help me with that? Well, thanks for listening. Sorry for being such a downer. I'm completely alone.
28 Nov 2014, 6:53 pm
