Well first off, I deleted this by accident in the process of making it. So writing any sort of elaborate summary of myself would be quite painstaking to an apathetic individual like myself. Honestly I don't even know why I'm here, one part of me says I'm a frail individual that needs reassurance to live on, and the more so logical part of me says I'm merely here as a way to organize my thought processes which often get scrambled. Whatever the reason my insurmountable amount of apathy dissipates any care for rhyme and reason. I've given up on deep philosophical thoughts entirely upon realizing how utterly pointless such thoughts were in a world of infinitely contradicting variables, hence the username DustPendulum is derived from an analogy that you the reader should be able to discern on your own. Although I do have Asperger's Syndrome I'm void of some of it's components,such as sensory dysfunction, low self-esteem, distaste for anything out of routine, obsessions, and clumsiness.
Sensory Dysfunction: It always bothered me in my childhood, but now a days I can listen to headphones full volume, wear a fleece sweater, eat obscure and/or textured foods, and have strobe lights flashing in my face, yet feel little to no irritation from such things. In fact I'm the polar opposite when it comes to sensory perception.
Low self-esteem: If anything I'm a bit of a narcissist with how I feel my sole purpose is to serve myself as the dignified, proud, serene, strong, exotic, and attractive person I believe myself to be. I guess you could say this mindset could be attributed to the fact that I'm generally accepted at my high school, or a least I don't disturb people to extent that they feel I'm worth the time to beat down. In my case narcissism is quite possible, knowing how aspies tend to let things go to their heads and that I've been complimented far more than put down.
Distaste for anything out of routine: WOAH! It's so Ironic, that it's actually funny! There's nothing I love more than experiencing new things, situations, and concepts. I'm always the first one to taste test the exotic food that no one dare eat, and always the first person to stop eating to try something else unknown to thine tongue. Not a day goes by where I don't search for new music to add to the plethora of underground masterpieces my playlist is constituted of. Nor does a day go by where I don't look forward to some crazy unexpected scene to happen within the confines of my school. f**k, I sometimes transfer classes just for the new experience. Reality is one big routine, after who knows how many eons of reality routine has grown mediocre.
Obsessions: I had these up until fairly recently, but none of my past obsessions have lasted more than a few years. Honestly, I wish I could go back to the days where I'd escape from boredom and reality for hours on end through these obsessions. Now all my interests are for the most part equally proportionate, fairly expansive, and anything but particular.
Clumsiness: Well, I can't say I've ever been clumsy. I think my mom saved those genes for my sister and gave me the rest.
03 Dec 2014, 8:00 pm
