hiraeth wrote:
I've been lurking for a while because I haven't felt able to put together the words to adequately convey myself. But at this rate I'm never going to so I might as well do it anyways.
As some folks have said before, I really love the site name. It describes how I've felt all my life more than anything else. "I was born on the wrong planet".
I attributed my struggles to a whole range of other issues throughout my life but have not found that any of them adequately addressed what was really going on. I have never looked at ASD before, but when I started researching it more seriously, I felt a strong identification with the description and with people's experiences. Many of the people that I've related to strongly in the past and now, have been diagnosed.
I'm not sure whether it would be within my financial means to pursue a formal diagnosis, but I want to try anyways. I'm experiencing a lot of anxiety around the idea as the mental health system hasn't been too good to me in the past. It's never been helpful, never given me proper answers, never wanted to truly hear me out, why do I think it can this time?
When I was being evaluated for ASD I also was anxious regarding my diagnosis. Some people I know on this and other forums were also anxious regarding their diagnosis so I wonder if anxiety relating to whether or not you have ASD is somehow related to ASD. However, it is implausible.
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15 Jun 2015, 8:00 pm
You're among friends here. 
