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I'm Fizzy Orange. I'm undiagnosed. 20-something. No friends. No job. Quirky, yet happy about it. ...Yea.

Why I'm Here:

Well, I will start with...my experience with social anxiety. I was properly diagnosed with Social Anxiety, and Avoidant, in college. I never felt that this quite covered it. There was always something that I didn't understand about me and often times hid from everyone. I did my best to seem normal and often times losing myself in the process. I gave up college then work, because that small problem I couldn't express or understand was making things much harder. When my mother got tired of me staying holed up in my room, I decided to try to explain this issue. (There are a few details I'm omitting. One being that I read an article about how Aspergers is under diagnosed in women and girls. I also had a friend who is Autistic suggest to me that I sounded like I was "on the Spectrum." That suggestion is something I dismissed.)

I started really evaluating my life experiences and realized...something was different and it is still different and I'm not on the same level as my peers. I initially chucked it up to me just being a bad seed. People have called me lazy, weird, dumb, the r-word. I believed these things about me, too. But reading that article presented a different perspective. When I brought it up to my psychiatrist, she said it was only because of my social anxiety. I let it go. After my mother's complaints, I decided to ask a different person at the same clinic. She said that I was only depressed. She even tried to push me onto medication to help my mood.

Lately I've been going a bit crazy about going after a diagnosis. I've been afraid that I could be wrong. I've been discussing it with my mom and closest friend (a faceless email buddy) and I've been going over and over this same topic. I am worried that I'm wrong. I'm even more scared that I could go through life with no help for the problems I have.

Most of all, I'm here to discuss this with people who I feel I relate to. When I would type some of my problems into Google, the results would sometimes lead here. Trouble with holding a job and other related things was the most specific one.

I hope to continue on my journey to proper diagnosis.


Some of my likes:
Writing
Reading
Doctor Who
TV
Food and Fitness (though I can't always get it right.)

Welcome.

Welcome to wrong planet, and good luck to you!
(I love your username !?)

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Hey Fizzy Orange welcome.

Thank you all for your welcome.

FizzyOrange wrote:

Lately I've been going a bit crazy about going after a diagnosis. I've been afraid that I could be wrong. I've been discussing it with my mom and closest friend (a faceless email buddy) and I've been going over and over this same topic. I am worried that I'm wrong. I'm even more scared that I could go through life with no help for the problems I have.

But you could be right! I have ALWAYS been very socially awkward and until the last 3 months had NO idea it was ASD, I am so happy I got my diagnosis last week as I now know why I do certain things and it helps you accept yourself for who you are , I say go for the assessment and see what happens